Pagkatapos kong umalis sa restaurant, napadaan ako sa isang mall. And there inside I saw Emily and my groupmates happily talking. I felt dismayed at what I saw. So many troubles and negativities happened to me today. What did I do to deserve all of this? I don't want to confront them further anymore, baka hindi lang masakit na salita ang mabitawan
ko sa kanila. What happened earlier is enough.
I bought some canned beer for myself. I just sat in the park, watching the birds fly and pass by. It was getting late, pero wala namang pinipiling oras ang pag-iinom. I'm not a heavy drinker, but being a graduating student at the legal age, I figured it was okay to finish case of it.
I just finished my third beer.
My phone had been ringing since earlier, but I ignored it and finished two more beers. I didn't realize I dozed off briefly. Medyo nalulula pa ako nong in-open ko ulit ang phone ko.
"It's already ten? Haha, masyado akong nag-enjoy," I laughed at myself.
I put the cans in a plastic bag and disposed them off in the trash bin. Even if I'm tipsy, I should still dispose of my trash properly.
I went to the nearby waiting shed, hoping for a taxi or bus to pass by. My phone's battery had died. Bumalik nanaman ako sa kadramahan ko. Mabait naman akong bata—this isn't really me. If only my dad didn't choose that woman over us, maybe we'd be a happy family. Yes, I'm upset with what Emily did to me, but I'm more upset with what my dad did. Instead of defending me against his mistress, pinangaralan niya pa ako? He really can't feel the pain I'm going through. Just because we have money, does that mean I don't need care and affection from him anymore? Is he trying to normalize being a hypocritical father?
Suddenly, I felt cold as water dripped from above. Nakakainis, bakit ngayon pa umulan? The sky really doesn't like me, it doesn't want me to be dramatic. Looks like she's having a beef with me.
"I hate you!" I almost screamed in frustration.
Tears suddenly fell down from my eyes, a mix of sadness and anger from earlier. I thought I wouldn't cry because I'm tough—I think of that to myself, but the pent-up emotions made me break down. The heavy rain poured, and this waiting shed had no roof? Nakakainis talaga! Maglalagay nalang ng roof 1/4 lang ang yero? I'm angry because this waiting shed has no roof, and I'm crying harder because I don't know how I'll get home.
*beep beeeeppppp
Nagulantang naman ako sa sobrang lakas na busina mula sa isang kotse. I can barely see it dahil sa malakas na ulan. The window then rolled down, and I was stounded and delighted when I saw who it is.
"Joaqui?!" nakita ko ang pagbaba ng mirror sa driver's seat.
"What the hell are you doing here?" he furiously uttered and immediately got off from his car. Inalalayan niya ako papasok sa kotse niya.
"Damn, basang-basa ka. Ba't hindi ka pumunta sa mas malaking masisilungan?" he asked again nong makapasok na siya pabalik sa kotse.
He handed me a shirt at kinuha ko agad 'yon. Nanginginig na pala ako sa sobrang lamig.
"Ginamit mo na ba 'to?" I asked na mas kinakunot pa ng noo niya at mas kumurba pa ang galit sa mga kilay niya.
"Uminom ka?" pagalit niyang tanong. I shook my head.
"Liar, you smell strongly of alcohol."
his expression darkened as he drove. He turned on the car's heater and handed me his jacket.
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Saudade Hearts (Complete)
Historia CortaSuadade, a deep feeling of longing. Darcia and Joaquin's love story is a definition of this feeling. The feeling that both of them never wanted to feel. Note: This story may not be extravagant, it's simple, and one might say it's too common. However...
