Untold Feelings - Yoonmin

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❗This FF will contain sensitive topics such as: talk of suicide, self harm, depression, suicide, maybe sexual content, and misuse of drugs. If any of the listed things make you uncomfortable you might not want to read this FF, or read it with caution. ❗

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Breaths. Deep harsh breaths.. Rigid and sharp as he laid on his floor gasping for air. He tried to scream but his head felt as if it were exploding as his nails dug into the wood of the cabinet beside him. He laid helplessly and coughed. Eyes clenched closed and limbs numb. He wanted to scream for help but his voice came out as small squeaks. He felt stupid for what caused this but he still found himself thinking of that one boy... The world was crude and he knew it now. But it was impossible to die from heartbreak was it not? It didn't seem that way at the moment, because now Yoongi laid helplessly for who knows how long until he eventually became unconscious.

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Earlier that day
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The day started as any other day for Yoongi. He woke up, ate breakfast, got dressed, got on the bus and admired his favorite boy. He would never tell the boy he loved him though, nope, no, never. Never ever ever. He knew the feeling wouldn't be mutual, but he didn't care, he loved the raven head with all his heart. So there Yoongi was, sitting on the seat opposite to Jimin's, stealing glaces every now and then. The raven head was giggling with his best friends. Kim Taehyung and Jeon Jungkook. He liked them, not so much Jungkook as Taehyung but he liked that they made Jimin happy. Yoongi put one earbud in as he listened to some music in one ear and listened to Jimin's heavenly voice through the other. Jimin looked stunning today, angelic even. Not that he didn't look amazing everyday, but today was just...Wow, perfect. Yoongi quietly grabbed out his sketchbook and a charcoal pencil. He quickly etched the beautiful boy in front of him before the school bus finally came to a halt.

Everyone made their way to their classes and luckily for Yoongi, his first period was with Jimin, so he quickly walked to class so he could get the seat closest to Jimin. Yoongi got there and soon after Jimin did with Taehyung. They were still chatting and Taehyung laughed loudly and Jimin was bright red. Yoongi wondered what that was about, so he stayed silent and listened in. He knew it was probably wrong and weird to do it, but he couldn't help it. He was so fascinated by everything Jimin had to say. But oh did Yoongi now wish he hadn't listened in on this conversation...

"Shh!" Jimin shushed Taehyung as he giggled quietly with his bright red cheeks.

"You should ask him out!" Taehyung said as he shook Jimin. Yoongi furrowed his brows.

"Jungkook doesn't like me back, it'd be pointless" Yoongi already knew the boy liked Jungkook, which is why he didn't favor him, but that didn't stop the boy's jaw to clench and heart to feel tied.

"He does! I promise Jimin, I've seen the way you look at each other, if he doesn't like you then he has some explaining to do!"

"Should I just do it?" Yoongi panicked.

"Yes!" Yoongi's heart sank lower into his chest.

"I don't know, I'm nervous.." Jimin worried, easing Yoongi's nerves a bit.

"I'll be there for you no matter what, promise!" Taehyung encouraged. Yoongi felt like smacking him but instead he just glared. Luckily the boy hadn't noticed.

"Maybe.." Jimin finally said and Yoongi just fell back into his seat, slightly irritated but he wouldn't let that ruin his day. Not yet at least. Because his day was ruined later....

(Later in the school day)

Yoongi was eating his lunch alone in the corner of the cafeteria as per usual when Taehyung approached him with Jimin following him. Yoongi felt his face heat up.

"Your name is Yoongi right?" Taehyung asked as Jimin tried to pull him away, obviously embarrassed.

"Y-yes" Yoongi stuttered out, he was always a shy boy, the quiet kid as one would say.

"Okay, don't take this in a weird way but do you think Jimin is attractive? He doesn't think he is attractive enough to get the guy he wants but I keep telling him he's a snack!" Taehyung said as Jimin crumbled in embarrassment.

Shit.. Yoongi was stuck now. If he says yes then Jimin would start dating Jungkook, but if he says no Jimin would hate him...

"I-um"

"You don't have to answer that" Jimin quickly said in his smooth voice..

"Y-you are really pretty, in my eyes at least.."

"Thank you!" Taehyung clapped

Jimin smiled and blushed a bit.

"Thanks..you're not too bad yourself" Jimin said. Now Yoongi wasn't ugly, he cared about his appearance very much, so getting that from Jimin made him feel like he was flying.

"T-thanks" Yoongi blushed. Wow, this day was going amazing. Until it wasn't...

Not too long after Jimin called yoongi attractive..in a way.. he watched as jimin and Taehyung walked up to Jungkook. He saw the expressions and he immediately knew what was happening, his heart began to race and his palms were sweating. He watched Jungkook jump up and hug Jimin tightly, kissing his cheek. Yoongi felt nauseous as he wobbled out of the school. Tears flowed down his face as he rushed out of the school, running home. The feeling didn't fade when he was home, it got worse. He sobbed loudly as his tired legs finally gave out, trying to grab anything he could to be able to regain composure. But it felt impossible, he thought he would die. Heartbreak hurts, and now Yoongi knows this..