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1. Intro

•Bethany's POV•

Your lying if you don't walk through doors and try to keep your jaw from dropping when you see Derek Hough.The hardest part of dancing with him everyday for six hours is knowing this is just a stupid pathetic crush.I know he will never like me.I know I'm too young for him to ever see me as something more than a dance partner. Ya know the feeling when you like someone so much that you don't even want to be near them? Like their presence is just absolutely sickening to you because they will never be yours.Maybe they like someone else or maybe they are just not into you. Whatever it is it doesn't matter anyway because it sucks. Love is like this complicated drug that you want so bad but know you should never have. Why is it this way? When someone figures it out, please call me right away I'd really appreciate it. Anyway, this is the type of daily struggle I have to face. Each time I walk in through those doors to practice our new dance routine I almost run away that second. Why you might ask, well here's the answer in two words DEREK HOUGH.You probably think I'm crazy right now. I know it seems pretty insane for anyone to run away from Derek Hough. But, for me it's completely normal I usually find myself avoiding Derek at all times outside of practice. Why? you ask again. Because it's just too hard to be around someone 24/7 that you would do anything for when they don't even think about you, that's why. To me all I feel is anger. I'm angry because I feel like I'm being led on. Do you know what it feels like to be led on? I really hope not because guess what it really sucks. Just imagine it like this.... you have feeling for this hot guy and you are basically with him all the time.He does subtle little things to make you wonder. Like leaving his hand on your lower back for a little too long or while rehearsing for a dance he puts his lips only inches from yours which forces you to feel uncomfortable as you try "to act like nothing happened" or "act cool" when really on the inside you just wanna scream at him to kiss you. Frustrating right! Mine and Derek's fans both ship us. (Which I secretly love don't get me wrong). But when every interview we go to and someone just has to bring up "the amount of people that ship us" I wanna scream. Derek usually replies to these type of questions so I don't have to which I'm thankful for. But what I'm not thankful for is what he says. Usually it's something along the lines of "yeah she's cute isn't she" or "many people love to ship us".The things that he says would lead you to believe that he has feelings for me too. Well too bad that's not the truth. Some days he's so touchy and loving to me it makes me go mad.

Well thank goodness I don't have to deal with that anymore. Why?you ask again. Well because now Dancing With The Stars is over. Derek and I came in 4th place. I know it's not the same as winning but I'm still pretty excited about it. It's exactly 3 months since the last episode aired. I'm currently living in Cali with my family.Guess who also lives in Cali. Oh yeah Derek Hough. Guess who loves to have lots and lots of parties with Mark Ballas. Derek Hough. Guess who gets invited to all of these parties. Oh yeah me, Bethany Mota. In fact, he's having one tomorrow night. Thank goodness Sadie is visiting with us for a little while so she will be able to go with me.I know it sounds like I think this is a bad thing, I know it's not. But I still just don't understand why Derek is still keeping me around. He has never done this with any other of his partners so why me? It jut doesn't make sense. One part of me wants something real and magical with Derek. But the other part of me doesn't even want to get involved with him. To me it seems like I'm trying to get myself in one big giant mess.But oh well, what's a girl to do. I mean sure Derek is attractive but he's also like old and I'm like young. That would be like illegal. Just kidding I know it's not illegal but I mean c'mon. Derek doesn't see me as anything else than one of his dance partners..............................right?

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It's never too late for Motough right?!? I hope you guys enjoy this new story!💗💜💙❤️