every.single.day.

5. Coffee?

•Bethany's POV•

When Sadie and I woke up the next morning after Derek and Mark's party she thought it would be a good idea to go out for some shopping and starbucks. Of course I agreed because those are my two favorite words to hear. I mean who doesn't like starbucks? And the shopping part is pretty great also. We rode in my car to Starbucks at about 11:00 am. Odd enough for me seeing as though I usually am not even up until 1 or later. Sadie seemed really eager to go for some reason....like something was uhh...planned...I don't really know I can't explain it.. Anyway... She pushed that we left at exactly 10:45 which I thought was very off. Why did we have to leave for Starbucks at a specific time? Did the baristas really care if we weren't there at exactly 11:00? Whatever it just seemed a little crazy but that's Sadie for ya.

We finally get to the nearby Starbucks and I couldn't be more excited to finally get out of this car with Sadie..all she has been talking about is how I'd just make the absolute cutest couple in the world with Derek. And yeah I would like to date him and all but I just can't. The last thing I wanna do right now is talk about Derek and I. We make our way to the door of Starbucks and I am refreshed with that amazing coffee smell that somewhat instantly wakes me up.As soon as I walk in I lift my head up and gasp. Of course. Guess who's there? Derek and Mark of course. I slowly turn to Sadie giving her the evil eye before I try to make a quick exit past her. Yet she stops me in my tracks, turns my body around and pushes me through the door. Yikes I'm not ready for this. I slowly make my way to the cash register with Sadie following me close behind. I order my drink then step aside to let Sadie order also.
After our drinks were made and in our hands Sadie led us to sit with Derek and Mark. Awkwardly I followed against my will. We sat down and talked with them for awhile. Mark of course makes smart comments to emerge how Derek seems to miss me so much lately and how he can't stop talking about me. I can't help it but I know I shouldn't be this awkward around Derek, especially when it feels like I've known him for so long but now it all just feels different.. We know that our friends are trying to set us up
So it is just a little more awkward now more than ever has been. My mind drifts and I seem to wonder about what he thinks of all this...does he even like me in that sense??? Am I too young???...wait of course I am why am I even thinking like this. Derek is a man he wants things that I cannot give him... Why should I even be thinking that I could... Ugh but it's Derek and he's so kind and gentle and gorgeous and...

"Bethany....Bethany????" Derek questions

I slowly snap out of the trance I was just in and look down to hope that I wasn't drooling. My cheeks start to heat up as I realize that it is only me and Derek at the table and Sadie and Mark have seen to vanished into thin air.

"Ooh sorry I've just been out of it lately" I say with the awkwardness seeping out of my voice

"Haha it's okay trust me I am used to it by now... Remember I was your dance partner for three months... You loved to dose off at those times too."

"Oh yeah I remember, so where did Sadie and Mark go?"

"They said something about puppies and Icecream after that I stopped listening and caring, who knows what they're up to anyways."

"Yeah they sure are weird" I reply

The awkward tension we're both feeling right now sucks. Things never used to be this way and I really hope they aren't like this all the time now. Honestly I just wish Sadie would've never tried to set us up like this. I feel like our friendship that we have built for so long is just being knocked down right now because of the feelings I have for him. I have to stop myself right now. I start panicking and my breath hitches in my throat.

"Derek I uh gotta go"

"Well about that... Mark and Sadie also kinda took your car for the puppies and icecream...So I'm gonna need to drive you home"

Omg I wanted to die no this is horrible now I will have to face an awkward car ride with Derek too... This day couldn't get any worse. I just want to crawl in my bed and die.

" oh okay that sounds good" I say completely lying through my teeth

Once we were on our way to my house I felt Derek look over at me many times. Still I just sat there frozen, too scared to move or look over at him. Why did it have to be like this.  Finally Derek spoke," hey uhh Beth, are you okay???... You don't seem like yourself ... Do you wanna talk about anything at all"

I smile and look over at Derek "don't worry I'm fine, trust me..just tired yanno the usual"

"Beth c'mon I think I know you a little better than this, something is obviously wrong with you.."

"No really Derek I'm fine!!"

"Well honestly Beth I don't think I am. I feel like we are drifting... And I think we both know why this is happening".

"Derek I'm not really sure what you are talking about"

"Beth I don't know how to say this... I've been talking to so many people and all of these people have been telling me the same thing. "Don't do it Derek it's not appropriate, it's not professional, it's weird, it will ruin your reputation,everyone will think badly of you, you can't do this... "But Beth despite what everyone is saying the weird thing is I could care less and I don't know how you're gonna react but..."

"Derek wait what are you about to say. I'm telling you Derek we can't do this, I have so many girls following me and following my every move, I can't do this I'm sorry I just can't. I need to be a good role model and I need to set examples. I'm sorry."

And for the whole rest of the car ride back to my house it was silent. Ugh am I stupid.

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Omg I'm back!!!!! It's literally been almost a year since I was last on and I apologize.. I hope u like this chapter!! Update coming soon💕💞💖💜💘💙