Love After Hurt

holding on to hope.

~Azani's POV ~

"You want some ginger tea , Azani ?"

Ashley asks for the third time.

" No, I'm okay," I say, almost sounding irritated.

Shi, just a try to help you, big fool!.

" I'm sorry, I'm just not hungry, A"

" It's okay , Azani you need to talk now. What happened last night?"

" And don't tell me you're not ready. You need to talk." she spits out

" We had a fight, and him beat mi up A," I say immediately, crying as I think about what he did to me.

" How comes him start beat yuh up ,wa dis yah , hey mek wi go to the police inuh Azani"

"Dem naa guh do nothing Ashley him and alla dem a friend dung deh."

" Suh, yuh, just ago, sit down, suh look how him duh u face and u back, him want a man sniff a 20 bag n guh dung deh guh mek him swollow him tongue".

A smile plays its way on my face.

" By the way, mek mi call zienne and Tremaine cause something need fi duh dah bwoy deh."

She takes the phone up and calls the girls on three way.

20 minutes later

" And a cas mi phone did deh pan do not disturb inuh cas mi wake up and si the missed calls dem , the dutty bwoy fi dead , mi did tell Az inuh mi did tell her " Tremaine says on the phone

"I don't even know what to say but you need to speak to the police or someone in authority Az he can't just hit you like that," Ashley says softly

"Nuh badda wid u speeky spooky self inuh ash , di bwoy want a man battery him," Trimaine says

They all laugh out

"We are on our way there anyway , we'll talk when we get there ", trem says.
.................

"I need my scrubs and stuff from the house. I have work, and I know he's not home," I say to Tiona

" Girl, you can manage fi guh work a wah duh yuh suh," she spits

" Yes, I can. I'll just put some makeup on , I'll be fine I'm gonna grab some clothes just to stay for another day if that's okay with you."

" Girl, tek up the damn dresser and come bout if that's okay," she says rolling her eyes.

I get in the car to get my stuff.

12:45 pm

I'm so late this morning , mi tiad n waa sleep but i have to be at work nonetheless.

I put my stuff in the locker and head to the nurses station to get my day started.

I take a cup from the cupboards to make some coffee before I get my day started.

I don't even know how we got here . What really went wrong ? Am I no longer good enough for him?.

I feel a tear fall from my eyes , I quickly wipe it away.

"Are you okay?" Someone says from behind.

God a u that? MI nuh ready inuh .

I turn to see him sitting there with a cup I his hand, a who him.

He must be one a the doctors that they send over from KPH him look new.

"I'm okay," I say, trying to smile .

" So how you fine and a cry"?, he asks cocking his eyebrows.

" I'm fine sir , thank you " I half yell

Cas why him inna mi business chraaa

He flings his hands up , laughs and leaves the room.

Den him sexy eee.... Nuh badda wid it cas yuh naa nuh luck wid man si one a dem just buss u ass ,suh u just cut u eye yuh love pants foot tuh much .. Mmcht

Bwoy the gal inna mi head just love chat.

3:30 pm

My day goes like normal, but I couldn't help but think about how I was gonna go back there to get my stuff.

He hasn't called or texted me from that night , it honestly hurts, but that's just how it is. My mom say I should go to another police station and tell them, but he's not worth my hassle anyway.

I put the IV in my patient and head out to get some lunch .

Maybe mi can go a the drive thru mi feel fi some KFC .

As I walked down to the parking lot, I saw him leaning against a car not too far from mine.

A wah dis man him couldn't park somewhere else.

I avoid eye contact with him and go to pull my car door .

" Yaa guh fi lunch miss renkaz." he says

I groan inwardly.

" Obviously," shot at him.

Girl, why u nuh have no manners to yuh superior , lawd gawd.

"You know that you're the only nurse who speaks to me like this," he laughs

" What so because you're a doctor mi fi come dessuh come bow dung in front a yuh and worship you "?

" Neva seh dat inuh."

"Okay, well weh yuh seh nuh mek no sense either," I counteract

He laughs , " Go eat lunch, yaa, pretty nurse."

I get in the car and drive to KFC.

~Azani's POV ~

I sit in my car at the driveway of Toby's house because it's no longer home.

His car isn't in the driveway, which means he's not home, but I'm still adamant about going in .

I get up the courage and get out of the car. I use the key I have to open the door , I just need to get the rest of my stuff .

I'm looking for an apartment because I can't stay with Ashley forever. I take up all my perfumes and body stuff and pack them in the bag.

I take the rest of my clothes from the closet along with some shoes.

"A suh you just come in ere when u feel like afta yuh leff mi."

My heart sank into my chest at the sound of his voice.

"I just came to get my stuff, Toby, that's all." I tried not to sound as scared as I was.

He walks out of the room. I really hope he's gone and doesn't care that I'm here . Word can't explain how much I want to shit myself.

I finally get everything packed up in two suitcases and a big trash bag . I drag them to the hall where I see him sitting on the arm of the sofa.

" Suh yuh feel like yuh just ago get up and leave me suh Azani," he says almost sounding sarcastic.

" Toby you beat me to a pulp , you don't call or text me to see if I'm good , what relationship do you think is going to continue after that , you put your hands on me and that was it for me , just let me leave in peace."

"MI did tell u seh the relationship done Az?"

"Couples go through things inuh yo did know dat?"

"Couples go through things Toby, yuh literally put mi pan the ground and beat mi weh ya chat seh?"

"Azani, stop upset, mi!"

He shouts, and I instantly feel smaller . My palms start itching. I know he's gonna do something.

He walks over to me, and I attempt to run to the door, but he grabs one of the suitcases.

"Toby , please, mi a beg u just let me go," I plead

" B u cyaa leff mi," he says, and I feel weaker in his grasp. I just need something anything to hit him with.