Russo pov-
my head is filled with a thousand thoughts, football isn't one. I sigh as I fix the tongue on my predators and finish getting ready for training. I feel everyone's eyes on me and their worried looks, how does everyone notice somethings up so easily?
Wally gives me a tap and a confused nod almost as if she's asking what's wrong but I paint a smile on my dull face and pick up my water bottle. I see her look over to Leah, they look perplexed by the utter silence I've displayed since coming into training today.
I walked out of the changing room, heading towards the training pitch. I realise vic speed walking towards me as I try to avoid any communication with her. My mind was so full I could feel the pressure in my head, my heartbeat consumed me and my hands started to shake. I tensely looked to my left to see vic standing right next to me, she looked at my eyes and I could feel my heart pulsating before she asks, "is everything okay".
"I'm fine?" I sighed.
"I'm here okay" she whispered as I walked away.
We were doing rondos before we headed back in from training when Steph called me over, I forced myself to look somewhat okay just incase. "What's going on?" She asked as the colour drained from my face. "I'm fine" I whisper, my voice began to shake and my eyes began to blur.
Steph pulled me away from everyone else and wrapped her arms around me encapsulating my head into her chest. "Breathe, what's wrong with you today?" She questioned. A single tear trickled down my cheek and steph's face went from worried to panicked, no one had ever seen me in any mood other than energetic and happy, nevermind crying. I really couldn't help it, she held me tight, letting me catch my breath and get myself together before asking again "what's actually going on? I'm worried about you".
"It doesn't matter, I need to go, thankyou for being here", I replied as I stood up and got away.
I realised I wasn't getting away with my unusual emotion so I decided to speak to jonas to ask for a few days off. 'Knock knock' "come in!" Jonas looked at me with a different look than usual and suggested that i sat down.
Understandingly, I took a seat and awaited his words but nothing came, the silence was loud, deafening infact so I broke it. "Jonas I need a few days off" he looked at me gently and replied "I know you do, what's wrong?".
"Can you not tell the girls until tomorrow, but my family got into a car crash and my mum is hurt really bad" confused, he questioned
"by really bad, you mean she's going to be okay soon right?"
"She's not got long left" I almost shout. "Look, take as long as you need, keep me updated okay we love you and I hope your okay" , his words settled my heart and I tucked in the chair, packed my bag and left.
