Alessias pov-
I wake up after a restless night, it was 12:45. I picked up my phone to check socials and had 3 missed callls from Steph.
I didn't want to call her back because to be honest, I couldn't find the energy. Although I had limited energy, I had to call my dad to see how my mum was.
(A=alessia - D=dad)
A: "hi dad"
D: "hi lessi, are you okay?"
A: "yea I'm alright, how's things?"
D: "everything is Abit up in the air right now, mums gone for surgery, there's hope, but not much."
A: "I guess some hope is better than no hope"
A: "when will it be okay to see her?"
D: "today will be no good as she's just gonna be asleep after surgery, but tomorrow should be okay and we will have more info"
A: "okay thanks dad"
D: "love you less, call if you need anything."
A: "thanks dad, love you bye."
I put the phone down, and I feel a little less empty than before, now that I have a small bit of hope, there's a reason to fight and to smile.
By now it had gone 1:30, I hear a knock and mumbling outside the door so I went to answer.
Stephs pov-
I went home after training, to get showered and changed, I was ready by 1:15 so I called the girls and went to alessias house.
We were all there by half past. I felt nervous as we approached her door, I'm not sure why. I didn't know how we would find her.
Kyra knocks twice on the door, and shortly after alessia answers. She's got this smile plastered on her face, but I see right through it, her eyes look sad.
We give her hugs and go into her living room, she then asks "how are you guys?"
To which Leah replies "don't even start with how are we, we know what's up and we are here for you."
(K: Kyra - S: Steph- W: Wally A: alessia L: Leah)
A- "thanks Leah, and thank you guys for coming, but I'm not sure I'll be good company."
K- "less we aren't here for your company, we are here to talk to you and reassure you."
A- "I don't need any reassurance."
Alessia seems off, like she was putting on a strong front, but again I saw right through, and I think the girls did too. I noticed alessia's hands were kind of shaking and her legs were bouncing. I put my hand on hers to try calm her down but that only seemed to make things worse.
Alessias pov-
I'm grateful that they care for me and that they care to come over, but I know if I talked to anyone I'd break down. I think that's what they're wanted, for me to be vulnerable but I just couldn't.
My heart starts to beat a little faster, and my vision starts to blur. I don't even notice my hands shaking until Steph starts to hold them.
Wally asks what's going on, but I can't speak, my words won't come out and I start to get breathless. I could tell everyone was worried, they were all scrambling and telling me to breathe. Leah sits next to me and just hugs me.
My breathing gets heavier and my eyes start to flood, I think every pent up emotion from the past few days was coming out, and it couldn't have came at a worse time.
L- "less it's okay, listen to me, look around you and name what you see."
A-"I can see you, the couc-."
L-"what?! Are you okay."
A- "Leah I can't see."
Once I say I can't see, they all become really worried. I feel so dizzy, the whole world is spinning. At the same time as I'm breaking down, my body is shutting off. I hadn't eaten much since the day before yesterday. Leah asks me to describe how I'm feeling. But it was indescribable, my eyes felt like they where pulsating as blackish waves flooded my vision, my head had its own heartbeat and my limbs where weak. I realise that this was more than a panic attack and I was gonna faint. I told Kyra to ring an ambulance and from there, I don't remember much.
