THE COMPANIONS

Suffering from Analysis Paralysis

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Rohit was sitting in his room after losing the match against KKR. He was remembering the worst moment for him in the match. It was his wicket.

How can he get out so early in a must win match. He was upset with himself thinking how he made his team lose. He played as impact player and made it worst for team. He every time do this, be it match against LSG or Delhi. He could have played more responsibly against Rajasthan or Gujarat or Hyderabad. Every defeat made him more miserable. He was busy with his guilty thoughts when his phone rang. It was call from Virat Kohli, his friend who was with him at every difficult time. He wanted to talk to him, to share with him but decided against it when he remembered that RCB had match with Gujarat next day. He should not burden Virat with his thoughts.

Only thing in his favour at that time was that none of MI team member was with him. He cannot allow anyone to see his emotions. Tilak had followed him everywhere but he sent him away. He cannot burden kid with his own emotions that too when Tilak was also feeling low. Jassi came to him with food plate but he refused telling that he will eat later. He cannot tell his feelings to Jassi who tried to win every match and team lost.

When he could not control his own feelings, he decided to sleep thinking that it may help him to think better. Sleep had some other plans. It was past 2 am when he gave up idea of sleeping. He took his phone and his fingers automatically took him to a platform where he should not have. Once he started, there was no end to them. Nothing was false, his team asked him to play as batsman and he failed. Out of many, few draw his attention.

"Why Rohit is still in team whether it's MI or India?"

"Delhi walo, kya karte ise lekr, harne ka plan tha?"

"Poor Hardik, came to his previous team for doing good of team but his own teammates backstabbed him."

"Rohit made team lose by not scoring runs because he was removed as captain."

"Hardik's statement shows that he has no support from team: Adam Ghilchrist"

Does Hardik too think same? He was upset when he came to know about captaincy. At some time he had even decided not to play for IPL but he never wanted to lose the match. He always wanted to win the match be it for MI or India. He needs to talk to Hardik about it. Hardik knows him. He was about to go to Hardik's room but then decided against it. What if Hardik really believe them? He is in no position to hear it from Hardik.

"Rohit has black heart. He divided the team. First he did with Virat and now with Hardik."

From Mumbai Indians, his brain took him to Indian team. He can never do it against anyone. More than anyone else he can never do it against Virat. Virat knows him. He had talked about it with Virat and he never blamed him.

When a person tries to think positively in difficult situations, his brain always give him negative thoughts. Same happened with Rohit. More he tried to think positively, negative thoughts started coming in his brain. Virat is too good. He will never say it to his face. He was really hurt at that time. He has not allowed captaincy issue to come between their friendships. What if Virat hided his hurt from him? What if he Jaddu, Ajju, Ash ever felt same? Is he really reason Virat's suffering in past and Hardik's in present?

With more and more thinking, Rohit started feeling suffocated. He badly needed a particular person besides him. He needs to talk to him. He cannot move as his legs gave up. You really have a good friend who never left your side even when you failed him. His brain had already started blaming him for team's failure. Why he fails to score run when his team need him most. Why he never plays with responsibility? He always fails when his team needs him. He is failure.