The Way I Loved You

Chapter Four

THE MOMENT, I disembarked the bus I had already received a ton of texts and missed calls from both Tammy and Lucas. I also received messages from Rosie and Zach.

Rosie: don't you dare do what I think you're about to do.

  Tammy is scaring the shit out of me, and I am trying not to believe what she's saying.

      Zach: Hope you're ok.

Their act of concern was enough to warm my heart. It made me feel better, and I started to hope that one-day things were going to get better. I had to walk for approximately fifteen minutes to get to the lake. It was situated in a forest-esque area, where it had towering green trees and sand-covered paths that were often trailed by creatures that inhabited the woods.

The sky was darker than before, but it had stopped raining a while ago while I was still on the bus trying to rhyme words. The tarred road was drenched with water, the same could be said about the trees, the leaves shimmered with water and the barks were wet and dark. The place was humid and smelled like vegetation, and I felt like throwing up.

There was the sound of birds chirping loudly, and it annoyed me, and I tried my best not to be affected by it.

I had stored my earplugs in my bag to prevent it from being damaged. If it fell into any of the puddles that I had seen on my way, I had no idea what I would do. The outcome was something I did not even want to imagine, and I had to store it in my backpack, together with my phone.

Since it rained, the ground was slippery. Although the path to the woods was not as soaked as it was now. I was finally in the woods, and the air felt thick coupled with the scent of nature I felt choked. I had to endure the horrible scent while trying to maintain posture as I walked down the muddy path.

It was difficult at first.

The ground was still very damp and was no doubt slippery. I had to hold onto the tree bark, any time I felt unsteady and I was sure that in no seconds I could fall.

Stray hair blew in front of my face, because of the ceaseless wind, and I had to blow it away with my mouth until I reached a better spot where the sand did not retain enough moisture to be slippery, and from my eyesight, I could spot the pier.

I had untangled my hair in waves on the bus and at that moment I felt like a movie character in a film, while I watched the scenery outside blur.

There was hardly any breeze to scatter it and make me look like a mad woman. I looked decent, and I preferred to have it down than in an updo.

My favorite hairstyle without anyone having to tell me was when it was falling at my back, and swishing from side to side when I walked. I had long hair, so it gave me main character syndrome most time.

I always had to tie it because it was more uncomfortable down than when it was in a bun. I had to tie my hair once again, where it was unlikely any strand could fall out, and tamper with my vision.

  My eyes fall back to the pier once again, and I suddenly feel at ease. The wooden bridge was starting to decay and appeared old.

Even though it used to be Jaden's territory before he brought me here, I still thought about him once in a while, when I came to this place, but then soon forgot about it, when my eyes landed on the water.

The weather was chilly and awful to swim in, but I have longed for a very long time to be here, but could not because time did not allow me to do that.

As it turned out, when you are a senior, there is not much fun you can do, other than studying until past midnight. I knew that by the end of the day, I would catch a nasty cold and still, I wanted to do it. I wanted to be unimaginable in the water. I wanted to play with the water with my feet.