Hope

|Chapter 15|

|PRESENT|

My hands travelled around the thin white papers filled with scribbles. Ezra's diary is with me since he left. Each and every word had its own meaning and countless times I have heard the book. There were notes about his G8 operation during Tommy came up and a few pages for me, which the heading give Love. I cried more I should while reading that page.

LOVE

I embrace the words marked here.
All truthfully belongs to her.

Valeria Johnson Grace, herself pure magic with everything. Broken girl she was when I first saw her at a doorstep with tears covered her boundary.

I watched her over one and half years and studied each and every detail about her. My heart ached seeing her crave for love and cry for happiness.

One day or once I will make her mine and only mine. Valeria is meant to be loved and I will give her that with happiness she plea for.

Today I talked to my love, and she was scared but I will not hurt her even if that is my death wish. A dirty secret is inside me since 11 and I want Valeria to know that after she is happy with me.

'My one and only Valeria.'

~Ezra 

One of the pages from his diary and I cried reading each line. How many times did he mention me here and my tear drops covered the pages. Last night I haven't slept feeling one thing he told me not to, cry over him. Connor gave me a sleeping pill or else I would never sleep. Right now, we're on the way to Uptown where he was last seen. 

"I have asked some help here."
"Who?"

I asked but the answer came when we stopped Infront of Golden Palace. I was in shock seeing him ask hand from him after all these years. I hugged him and he gave me a small smile and this place belonged to his brother...I mean cousin brother who was in jail few years ago. Connor bailed him out after a year, and they weren't close till now him asking help to him.

"We are here to meet Mr. Miles."
"Do you have an appointment sir?"

Connor looked at me with sorry expression means he forgot. I kicked his leg and saw Miles come down and waved at him. He saw and winked at me. Same to Connor expect bit ruder used to, now I don't know.

"Valeria and Connor, how are you guys?"
"Great and I assume he must have explained the things out right?"
"Surprised and he did."

I laughed and Connor mocked me. He still has hate to Miles, but this guy can at least catch the area they are in because Miles has a hand on Mafia, and this was nothing but easy for him.

"Drake De Luca is name and right now undercover at Italy with some Mafia help."
"De Luca? Fuck, that guy nuts or what?"
"Sure, he is, and he changed his name by marrying one of the De Luca girls."
"Miles will you able to get us some guys?"

Connor dropped a glass and Miles, and I eyed him. What the fuck is wrong with him? Every time breaking or crashing things. I made him sit and asked him to be quiet.

"Valeria you're asking help from Mafia?"
"Mafia deals with mafia asshole."
"She got a point James."
"Fucked up we are, and I am normal-"
"No, you're SSA James and me Agent Grace."

He went all quiet hearing me say and after Ezra's lose, Tommy made Connor SSA and I joined FBI after my 18th birthday as an agent and replaced for Fiona. No one can replace Ezra and Fiona and strongly made a fight with Tommy about some new members. I smiled whenever I wore the badge, and this happened all because of Ezra. 

"Miles I guess we have our deal."
"You do agent Grace with all endings open."

I thanked Miles and left Golden Palace. Connor is one who arranged this meet up and I ended up handling it at last. He was still in shock hearing me close the deal with Miles. My phone beeped and it was the same number Drake last called and I picked the call up.

"How you doing Babygirl?"
"Can I be honest?"
"Why not?"
"I am in middle of getting fucked."

Connor stopped the car all the sudden and looked at me. He scanned head to toe and see if I am doing something and held his smirk. That bastard.

"Without me?"
"Yes, Babyboy."

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Valeria begin the only one for me after my family's death.

I wish I could show her how wonderful parents I had or even my sister who would have taken her away just from first meet up.

I wish to erase every sadness away and only make the happiness stay when I am with her.

I haven't shared anything about myself to her and the deep dirty secret hidden in my heart over years.

We won't stay like this forever and one day my dirty truth will pull me back where I came from and keep me away from Valeria.

I want my love to follow me, but this dirty truth shouldn't include her.

All I could tell is one day I will be taken away and she will grave on that pain.

[Note: Valeria should never read the next few lines]

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

I kissed her today and what did I feel? 

Fucking mind blowing and how well her sweet lips molded into mine was just perfect and I wish I could stay like that forever but she needs her time.

I will never push her to be with me, but she should know that her soul belongs to me, and I would never let her go with another guy even if I die...till then she won't be needing someone.

In my room inside the last drawer there is this emerald ring which my mother used, and I am keeping it for my love Valeria and one day her finger will have that ring.

'Valeria Charles she will become that day and I can't wait for that.'

Be the father of kids she carries and name them as per as her wish and keep them happy every single day.

-Ezra

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