Manoeuvre - MR. PARK 2

Chapter 76

Walking up to the sound of the birds and looking around only to realise..

How much the place seems liveless.
There were times when my little muchkin roamed around in her pyjamas giggling and calling "hey eommmaaaa I need new hairstyle"
"Eommmaaaa I need new pinssss" "eommaaaa yellowwww dress pleaseeee"

I don't even realise when my tears slid down my cheeks.
I get down the bed.. looking outside the balcony.. the weather seems rainy today..
she love rains too.. but my baby gets scared of the thunderstorm ..

I close the door to the balcony to end up in the kitchen making myself a cup of coffee and looking at the little mugs pink, yellow, blue.. another yellow..
these are all that are left of hers with me.

Would Jimin know how she gets cranky when her favourite movie is paused in the middle? Does he know she wants to eat chocolate cereal every Thursday cause she thinks chocolates on Thursday won't give her cavities... does he know.. she finds it tough to sleep without a kiss at night... wo..would he know how to cradle her when she's crying ... she likes it when you tickle her head while she sleeps.. would jimin know she seeks me when she wakes up from a very bad dream... would he know she love nose kisses more than forehead ones and that she likes her hair better in two pigtails rather than let it free...
D..does he know I ... I miss her.

I sat looking at those mugs.. growing impatient thinking about what my baby would be doing right now. He must be taking care of her right? .. he is a good father.. he lo..he loves her..

I got up throwing my rest of the coffee into the sink and then showering.

My thoughts just filled with her.

I went towards the wardrobe and looked at her little shoes resting on the floor besides mine.

Those yellow butterfly ones.. they were her favourites.. the white ones.. I gifted them to her .. when she made her first drawing without my help for her school.

Would she be going to school now? .. h..how would she adjust with new students.. sh..she speaks not so good korean.. s..she's just a baby.. she.. she needs her mother.. no..
No she doesn't need me. She doesn't. Jimin will provide her with everything. ...

I miss her .. I miss her so much. No..Mari... I ...I love you baby... please forgive eomma... Eomma loves you too much. Eomma couldn't be with you.. eomma couldn't give you a family...

I sobbed and then felt a hand on my head

"Eommmaaaa! Eommmaaaa!"

...
I opened my eyes gasping and the first thing I saw was Mari.
I immediately embraced her crying and kissing her face all over. "Eomma is sorry.. Eomma is so sorry baby.. I love you. Eomma loves you so much" I cried

When she broke the hug looking at me with her teary eyes
"Why you crying eomma.. eomma... are you okay? .. did eomma have a bad dream? Eomma I'm here .. Mari loves you the most eomma" she hugged me and I looked at her and then realised the dream I just had.

I won't survive without her

"Hey.. Bi... are you okay?" I heard Jimin walking into the room and my tears sprawled out

"Oh .. no..no..no come here.. no crying.. what did you dream of.. no" he quickly sat besides the bed while pulling me into a hug and kissing my head.
"I'm here.. Mari's here.. you're safe.. what happened do you wanna talk about it?" He asked and I shook my head clutching his tshirt in my fist.

"W..what time is it?" I asked and Mari looked at the clock
"It's.. 8 in the evening eomma! Am I right appa?" She asked and Jimin kissed her cheek
"Ofcourse you're right my angel! Our princess is so smart already!" He said and I looked at him
"H..how long did I sleep?"
"You seemed tired , you slept for a few hours and I know you must be hungry. I've ordered food. You wanna have it here or come to the living room?" He asked and I looked at the both of them

"Living room"

...
We three sat eating and talking. Mari was so engaged in telling us the time and asking if she was right again and again.. jimin sat filling my plate with food again and again.

Was this what I was going to miss ..

Do I really have to leave them both?

"Eomma eomma look! Dadaaaa made me a braid!" She jumped around while I just nodded smiling

Soon we put Mari to sleep as Jimin came back from her room
"Bi?"
"Hmm" I turned towards him as he sat besides me
"Are you alright?" He asked pulling my hand in his in his and resting it on his thigh
I looked into his eyes

Home

"Jimin?"
"Hmm"
"Do you really love me?" I asked and his eyes turned soft
"Where is this coming from?"
"No answer me.. do you really.. like love me?" I asked with no expressions on my face and he turned towards me
"Every night when I sleep, I sleep with the thought of seeing you exist. Seeing you breathe and smile.. I sleep with the thought of having to spend my entire day knowing I have a person living around me who is my home.. a person I see myself growing old with.. a person who's given me the greatest happiness ever to exist in the form of another tiny human being, a person who is the reason I am called "appa"... I wake up and see my thoughts coming to life and I thank god for that. Thank god for your existence. Ofcourse Biyanka, I am in love with you.. and I will forever be in love with you.. no matter what life throws at us. One thing I know is, thsi heart has found its home long back.. and that's you" he said

"I love you" i said and looked at his eyes growing wide and tears filling her eyes
"W...what"
"I love you... Park Jimin. I love you" I said and the next moment I felt his mouth engulfing my breath holding my figure in his hands..

He kissed me as if I was the last thing to ever exist, as if he needed me to breathe...

We broke the kiss as I panted looking at him
"Make love to me Jimin.. show me how much you missed me.." I whispered bringing my mouth near his and he wasn't to be told twice.