Destiny
Move-In Day
Clark Atlanta University
Man, I don't even know why I'm still trying this shit out. I don't even know If Imma fit in or not. This a HBCU and everybody suppose to be "united".. but something tells me it ain't gon be nun but drama. Put too many black people together and what you got? DRAMA.
"You ready babygirl?" My mama said looking over at me as we pulled up in front of the university. My mama was the type to always support me, even If I was wrong. Hell, ain't that what she suppose to do? She always had my back and whatever I thought about doing that was beneficial to me, she was on board with it. As the fuck she should. My mama my other half and everything she did for me was never overlooked.
"Yeah, I think so.. but I don't know ma, I'm a lil nervous. How I go from being with you & daddy for 21 years of my life to moving down here like this, this shit nerve-racking." I said looking back at her with my hand on my head.
"Girl I know, but somethin' In my mind telling me you gon be cool, long as you stay on yo shit like me & daddy taught you, you should O motherfuckin' K." She said back rubbing on my cheek with a smile planted on her face. Yeah okay, she just happy she finna get some endless dick now that I'm out the house, she ain't slick.
"Alright, come on. We gotta stand in this long ass line to get you registered and allat good stuff so come on & help me unpack yo shit." My mama said gettin out the car.
I followed her out the car and shut the car door. "WE? No, mama, I'll stand in line & register myself. I'm grown I can't have you standing in line with me like I'm a lil girl." I responded back confidently.
She looked back at me like I had her fucked up. And I did, but that wasn't the point. I'm starting college so late in my life. Most of my friends went to college right after high school. Shit, a lot of them even graduated already. Then there's me, Destiny, who thought she could make a damn living off of just selling bundles and eyelashes. Look where the fuck that got me.
As I helped my mama unpack everything out of her truck, my eyes began to well up with tears. I'm not use to being apart from my mama and my daddy, especially THIS far apart. We drove from Chicago to Atlanta, a 10+ hour ride and this shit never hit me, until now.
My mama glanced at me with weary eyes and seen my expression and immediately came over and gave me a tight hug and planted a kiss on my forehead. Honestly, I'm just nervous about all this shit. I have social anxiety really bad, so meeting new people for me makes me look like a damn idiot because I'll say the most dumbest shit sometimes. "Baby you gon be okay, Alright? You know we a call away. Plusss.." she said smiling and pulling back from me with both hands on my shoulders, "I think Nelli still here, If I heard Tanya right, she got about 2 more years to graduate."
Nelli was one of my good friends from middle school to high school. My mama and Nelli's mama, Tanya, are besties and when I say besties, I mean BESTIES. These hoes can talk all day and all damn night. But me and Nelli didn't speak as often simply because our lives were so different and we got caught up with life. No weird shit, that's still my girl. We just haven't had the opportunity to link up because of LIFE and distance between us.
"Awlll shit, yea let me get my shit together & find my girl!" I said excitedly packing all of my things together. I almost forgot to give my mama a final goodbye. I looked back at her with genuine smile and went to hug her one final time.
"I love you babygirl, you got this and don't let yo anxiety get in the way of anything. I know you'll do great as my baby the fuck should. You a Westmoreland & Westmoreland's don't fuck around, we get shit done!" I know that's right mama. I nodded with a smile, now confident in the steps I'll be taking without parental guidance at my big age.
