at least i have you

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TW!!

sage's pov

its 6 am in the morning.. i just woke up.. last night was bad but i only passed out 1 time. my head hurts so bad so im walking down the stairs to get water.
mom is downstairs..
-good morning sweetie - she says. she's wearing a skirt with flowers on it, with a white thight shirt. she looks so beautiful..
-hey mom you look stunning - she looks at me and smiles at me.. seeing her smile makes me feel warm, she is the sweetest.
she looks at me with a worried face, opening her mouth as she wants to say something but she doesnt say a word.. she keeps looking at me
-is everything okay? - i asked.
-did you eat yesterday sweetie? - she finally said what she wanted to.
-i didn't, but im fine mom. - a lie comes out of my mouth.. shame.
-please eat something.
-i will mom, dont worry about me..
-sage, you haven't eat anything in the past 3 days, promise me you'll eat.. - she is worrying about me. she wont believe me..
-i promise.. but now i have to get dressed. - i go back to my room. im looking in the mirror and im disgusted of what i see..
im wearing baggy jeans with an oversized shirt, but its so cold outside so im gonna wear a hoodie too.
grabbed my headphones, my lunch, my backpack and im on my way to school.
-are you okay sage? - my little borther asks
-i am Eli, and are you? - im not telling my 9 year old brother the truth its obvious.
-i am!! - he answears.

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we are at school. as im walking past the corridor, i dont see my best friend. where is he? if he is sick then im going home..
-SAGE! - i hear a his voice but i dont see him.
-alex? where are you? - i ask
-im right behind you.
i turn around and he is right there.
-i've missed you so much!! - i say
-same sagie - he answears with that weird nickname he gave me..
-"sagie.." why do you keep calling me that? - i've never asked this in those 14 years of knowing him.. ive known him since i was 3 and he calls me sagie ever since..
-because its cute! now dont act like you dont like it SAGIE
-ugh.. leave me alone alex.
-come on its your birthday in 4 days!!
-yeah, 17 sound a little too serious isnt it? - its so weird thinking about turning 17, its been 5 years since i havent seen my dad, and i dont wanna see him anymore. its better for me, for mom, and for Eli.
-well, we'll finally be the same age!
-co'mon! you are literally 7 months older than me alex.
we hear the bell ringing.. its already 8am..
-wanna skip PE today? - he asks me, but i think the answear is too obvious.
-is that even a question? of couse i want to. - i smile at him.
i head to class and i sit down. no one's sitting next to me which is good because i dont like my classmates. everyone is so fake.. cool the teachers here.. he walks in but the strange thing is, another girl is with her.
-goodmorning class! we have a new student, please welcome Britney!
he turns his face to the girl and says
go sit next to that girl - he points at me
oh shit..
-what? why me?? - i yell out of anger, i dont like sitting next to others.
-dont be so rude sage! you are the only person who doesnt have a seat partner.
great. now i have to sit next to this girl in maths.. she sit next to me
-hi my name is britney.. - she says.
great. now i have to talk to her.
-what? - i asked
-um i said my name is britney.
-oh okay, hi.
-and.. what is your name?? - she looks confused because i didnt say my name. but i dont like sage. it sounds like a boys name..
-sage. - i say quietly.
-sage..? wow i love your name! its so beautiful! - she smiles at me..
what? she likes my name..??
i cant help but ask her
-why?
-what? what do you mean why? because its beautiful.
i dont have words. i dont get compliments often, especially not on my name.
-are you okay? - she asked, i was quite for a whole minute.
-oh yeah i just dont really like my name but um.. thanks! - i cant stop smiling. i never smile on maths but she is so kind to me and for what?