britney's pov
my alarm rings at 5 am as usual, even tho i only have to go to the meeting spot at 9, but i dont wanna be late, im excited for this trip. especially because im gonna be in the same house as Alan, Sage and Alex. Alan's bringing one of his friends too.. he's texting me..
alan: hi baby, should i pick you up?
britney: if its okay with you then yes, thank you<3
alan: i'll be there with Marcus in like 15 mins.
britney: love you baby!
alan: love u too.
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im doing my makeup, im almost ready, and i hear my door opening..
-baby are you ready? - its Alan. -im here!
-yes just give me 5 more minutes.
-okay, ill help you with your suitcases.
-thank youu!
im almost ready, i just need to find my favourite lipstick and lipgloss.. where is it? its supposed to be on my desk but its not here. oh wait.. its on my bed. okay i can go now..
...
we're finally here at the meeting spot.
-im gonna go find sage - i tell Alan.
-sage? your friend?
-yess, she's in the same house as us, remember?
-oh okay, bye baby.
oh i see them, she's with Alex, as usual.
-hii guys! - i say
-hey britney! - they said at the same time
the bus is almost here, im gonna sit next to Alan.
...
the bus is finally here, Alan is coming over here..
-hi babyyy - i say.
-hello - his answer was this. its weird, he usually calls me baby, or a nickname, but its okay.
-come on! - i tell him
-okay.☆
after a 4 hour long bus ride, i feel so tired. its okay, we aint gonna do anything the rest of the day. its 2:30 at the time.
the teachers said that we're in the house thats next to the forest.. its so pretty.
we are going to unpack our things, choose a bed, etc...
..
-thats my bed! - says Alex, as he lays down on the bed next to the first window.
-okay, than this is mine - Sage sits down on one of the beds.
-Marcus, is this ok for you? - Alan asked Marcus before me, i wonder why..
-it doesnt matter.
-britney which one is your bed? - sage smiles at me
-i guess the one thats next to Alan.
-baby come here, this one is yours - Alan points at the bed next to him, i was right.
sage pulls out her airpods and starts listening to something with Alex. i wonder what they listen to..
-are we gonna buy some snacks Marcus? - my bofriend turned his head around and looked at his friend.
-sure, but im not paying.
-are you gonna buy alcohol?
-do you seriously think they sell alcohol in a KIDS camp?? are you stupid?
-i dont know. - Alan opens the door, and they leave. that means its only me, Sage and Alex.
...sage's pov
her stupid boyfriend finally left. i hate him. he's so annoying.. but finally, Britney is with us. that means i can talk to her finally.
-britney, do you wanna listen to music with us? - i disconnect my airpods. - what kind of music do you like? who's your favourite?
-i like many artists, but Billie Eilish is my favourite. i was so happy when i heard your ringtone was "NDA"
wow. she remembers..
-i love Billie Eilish! what song do you wanna listen to?
-umm my favourite is "when the party's over"
i love that song sooo much, im glad she likes it too.
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we had a fun time, but the jerks are back..
-the teacher said we're gonna have a party tonight. - Alan says.
-what?? i thought we were staying at our houses tonight.. we literally just got here. - britney complains.
-really. are you sure they said this?
-yes. i am sure. - Alan tries to convice me.
-at least we can drink i guess.. - Alex is right, i dont wanna go, but drinking is fun right?
-there's no way im going. - Britney says
-dont be such a bitch, we can go together! - Alan is such an asshole omg.
-dont talk to her like that! - i yell.
Britney smiles at me
-whatever.. lets go Marcus, we can have fun without them.
they walk out of the house, Britney looks at me, she's really tired..
-hey Britney.. wanna drink? we have alcohol, if we're going to the party you can have some - im trying to cheer her up but as you can see, im not doing it good. or am i..?
-fine.. you're right i guess?
wow i didnt expect it to work, but im glad we can go together..*after 5 hours*
-wooow this is... loud.. - Alex was impressed.. its literally 8 pm.
-WHAT?? - Yes. it was loud. Britney didnt hear a single word of what Alex said
-well.. lets go find alcohol, because i cant do it without that. - am i not being real? i am.
-i agree, honestly.. - i dont know if Britney is missing her boyfriend, or just want to have fun, i cant see her face, its too dark..we've been drinking and dancing for the past 3 hours.. wow. so impressed. its 11 pm and im so drunk.. mom will be happy.. oh wait, she wont!
-hi Sage
-hello Britney.. whats up?
-wanna dance? im bored.
-sure!
Taylor Swift is playing couse i asked for it but i cant believe what im hearing.
ITS LITERALLY "dress" OH MY GOD.-wait Britney.. isnt that.. Alan?
-where?
he was kissing another girl. i dont know who the girl was, the only thing i know is that Britney feels horrible.. because she starts crying, and runs away
-BRITNEY WAIT.. - i scream, she didnt turn around, she keeps running.-Britney are you okay? - she ran back to the house
-what do you think? he was MY boyfriend, not hers.. I REALLY LIKED HIM!! - she's crying on my shoulders.. she broke down..
-he didnt deserve you anyway.
she looked at me blushing.. i could be a 100% better boyfriend.. and im not even a boy.
she keeps looking at my lips while we're standing..
i hold her waist and pull her closer, her red lips are almost touching mine.. its so hard to breathe whenever im alone with her..
-i wanna kiss you.. - she looked at me with her beautiful eyes, and i dont know if she means it
-you're drunk, Britney.
-i want you - im trying not to, but its so hard to control my body if she's acting like this..
-stop it.. you dont want me.
-touch me! i know you want to..
-you would regret it! you have a boyfriend.
-i dont care about him.
-you do. you're drunk. its not okay if i do this.. - i push her away from me and lay her on the bed.she fell asleep after 5 mins, im drunk but i cant sleep.. i cant stop thinking about what she said.. 'i want you' i think she was just drunk but.. she seemed like she really did want me..
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