JOHNNIE POV:
lana has been off, since she said that. i'm kind of worried about her.
not like her to just stay quiet.
"baby, are you okay? you haven't spoke for some time now. and somethings up, you usually say my bad and not sorry. is everything all right?" i say.
"i'm fine" she sounded pissed, but that could be me.
so many thoughts raced through my head.
is she actually fine? is there something wrong? is she mad? did i do something?
"i love you so much. don't forget that.." i te her, sincerely.
"love you too" in the driest tone ever.
okay now i'm kind of pissed.
about 10 minutes passed and she was being really bitchy to me. we were still in the car.
i swear if she keeps this up im gonna tell jake im going back home.
"johnnie, can-" i cut her off
"for fucks sake lana. if you carry on being so bitchy and keep complaining to me. i'll fucking kill myself. all you've done this whole car ride is make me pissed off and worried. not only that, but i'm on my fucking limit now. just shut the fuck up before i walk out this fucking car." i was so fucking pissed off. i'm gonna jump.
"johnnie what the fuck.." jake replies
"pull over" tara says to jake and that's what he does.
"lana, we're getting out the car, jake you talk with johnnie about it"
so we both step outside the car.
"right what the fuck happened?"
"i honestly don't know..i was just telling him stuff and then he just snapped at me. i didn't mean to do..whatever i did." i was about to start crying, again.
"girl, im not gonna take sides here. but i know johnnie. ive lived with him for almost two years and i know what he's like. he reaches his limit sometimes when someone keeps doing the same thing over and over again. it's his patience. but i've known you for almost 7 years. you talk a lot. not saying you should stop because i love when you yap and we need yap duo to stay strong. so what you need to do in this situation is apologise to him, and if he doesn't respond with anything, either jake got really pissed at him or he is really really mad at you."
"okay..thanks"
tara knocks on the window of the vehicle and jake nods at her, signalling he was done.
JOHNNIE'S POV:
"right, johnnie what the actual fuck was that"
"i dunno..i'm sorry. it's just the same ring kept happening and i didn't take my pills today because i was too busy. and i just.. i lost it. i don't know what to do anymore. she's not gonna look at me the same anymore. what if she stops liking me? or breaks up with me? and before you say that she's not gonna do that, don't fucking start. i've known her for a little more than a year but it feels like i know everything about her. she's trusted me to say things she hasn't said to tara. and i've told her things i haven't told you. so i mean that's evidence for her not doing it but she could use that against me. and that's what i'm scared for." i tell jake. i started crying midway.
"im gonna go in the back with you" he gets out the car and goes to the backseat.
"okay so you're crazy. that's what u have to tell you first. trust me, she didn't mean to. you forgot to take your pills, and you're lucky i bring them around with me everyday. so yeah" he get the pills out and gives them to me
"thanks, i appreciate it. thank you so much jake" i take them from him.
"we have water in the trunk, i'll go get you some"
he walks out the car and gets the water from the trunk. he comes back and gives me the water.
"you're a little maniac.. i'm gonna go back to the front, and you need to apologise to her, you silly emo."
"i will."
WHEN TARA AND LANA COME BACK INTO THE CAR
a few minutes passed and i spoke up.
"look, lana i'm sorry. i didn't mean to snap at you. i just..i don't know what came over me. i forgot to take my pills..and i just went crazy. i'm sorry.."
"it's okay, i understand. i guess you never know. but how did it lead up to you snapping?" she asked curiously.
not something i get asked everyday?
"well how you were talking about the smallest things over and over again. i got kinda pissed off. oh wait no it all started with what you said earlier. something like dying and it would make no difference. i got kinda sad about it and really worried." i carried on telling her how it happened.
"jesus, im so sorry." she replies
"no, its okay. it's just 𝓁ℴ𝓋ℯ 𝓂𝒶𝒹ℯ 𝓂ℯ 𝒸𝓇𝒶𝓏𝓎"
