The first stage: DENIAL
I denied it. It took me so long to this stage, I think while overcoming the second to fourth stages, being in denial was always present. I kept on denying the fact that GD and Kiko are dating. I kept on denying even though the reality (those pictures of them together being romantic and so) was like slapping me and smacking me right through my face. No. I'm not gonna believe it. I trust JIyong. I trust him. I trust this ship! What if it was just a PR? What if they were just good friends? Or a covered issue? Daragon was way too more real than Jiko! I don't believe it. I just can't. YG haven't confirmed it yet. GD and Kiko don't say anything at all. Until they said so, then I'll believe it. It was unbearable. There was a time where I've searched some reviews that Jiko is for real. And yes, even though I was being a stubborn in denial person, on that moment, when I've read the articles about them from the beginning, it broke my heart. Because I can't deny the fact that even though it was much less evidence than Daragon's, it was really believable. And it hurt me so much because my mind wanted to accept the idea of them being together no more Daragon, but my heart was too close to open it for them. It was hard. It was hard to accept. Then when the leaked My-dear-Kiko video broke out, truly indeed I was completely devastated by it. I felt like my heart crushed into pieces. Was it really GD? Was it really him? What if he just looked like GD and not him? Maybe they were just really really good friends, right? He called her 'dear' but it doesn't mean anything, right? I can call my friends 'dear', too! But it was hard. It's like I'm lying to myself for my own satisfaction. I know what's going on but I can't accept it. It was really heavy.
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FanfictionThey say there were five stages of grief. The first stage was denial. The second was anger. Third stage was bargaining. Fourth one was depression. And finally, the last stage was acceptance. And I think, for me, as a Daragon fan, I can finally say...
