Forced To Love || Hyunlix || Lia.L

15. Moving In

Hyunjin POV

I drove back home after dropping Felix off. I was fucked. If my parents found out what happened, I would probably die.

Today has to be the worst day of my fucking life. Nothing went like it should've. I got engaged, great. I sold my 'fiancé' to some ass guy just to kill him, awesome. I felt sorry and apologized, amazing.

Why is this happening?!?

I groaned as I threw the pillow on my bed across the room. I felt frustrated because I actually felt guilty for the first time in years and I'm also throwing my pillow across the room like a child.

I can't even control my emotions all because of that short, stupid, blond dude. Everything was going so perfectly but just when he came, everything crumbled.

I'm loosing my mind. I should've killed him in the alleyway when I had the chance, but I couldn't. What's worse is I don't even know why I couldn't!

Whats so special about him that's driving my emotions out of control??
He's cute? Yea so what I have met many cute guys. He's got an attitude of a 5 year old? That should make me shoot him in an instant. My parents would kill me if I harm him? ...exactly..thats it...its all because of those 2 annoying roaches.

Can't they stop interfering in my life. No wonder they didn't let me move out at 18. Only if knew this was why they kept me with them I would've ran away. Fuck, my life is ruined all because of that dumbass.

I promise once we get married I'm going to make his life a living hell. He should've cancelled the wedding like I told him to. Playing all dumb I know he probably likes me thats why he isn't backing off. Let's see how long he can last.
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Felix POV

I layed in my bed starring at the ceiling while hugging one of my pillows. I felt so...hollow. It was as if there was nothing left for me. I mean...I got engaged to a guy who cares about no one but himself.

Soon we were getting married. I..what was I going to do? I have no choice. Its as if this isn't even my life. I am only following orders that keep pouring down on me.

I just wanted to be happy. Was that too much to ask for? Why was this even happening to me?

I'm scared...I am really really scared mom. What if Hyunjin repeats what he did? What if he does something worse? What should I do then? What can I even do? I wish you were here.

My eyes filled with tears as I kept starring at the ceiling, hugging the pillow tighter.

I wish..you had took me with you. It would've been so much better. So much easier. My father's an asshole. He never cared about me or anyone. Hyunjin is the same. He cares about only himself and nobody else.

I used to think maybe one day I will marry someone who would actually love me and truly care for me. I thought I would be happy but luck is never on my side now is it? Everyone just wants to make my life worser...except Minho hyung.

He's the only reason I haven't jumped off the window. If he wasn't here, I would've joined you long ago mom. I know this sounds selfish but sometimes I actually wished that he shouldn't have been here. So I could just die without leaving anything behind.

I just wish I could be happier.

I started to cry, the pillow muffling the sounds I made. I hated that I cried every now and then, but then I can't help it. I just hope to be happier. Thats all I can do. Hope.