Jinyoung remembers him.
Eyes busy in finding answers of whatever their professor had asked them, and hands writing things that he found important. He wouldn’t sit at one place, so it was reasonable why Jinyoung used to lose sight of the deer boy.
Being in the same class still made Jinyoung anxious when someone else approached the boy who sat two seats far.
Jinyoung was a secret admirer. He never collected his courage to approach him. Only his eyes screamed the love he had for his classmate.
They sometimes would encounter, shoulder brushing with each other, and exchanging shy bows. Eye contact never stayed more than two seconds because his classmate was always busy.
Jinyoung never liked the library. It was quiet, and even sighing can cause a glare from the librarian, but that day, it was necessary.
His graduation was near, and his assignment was due.
He remembered the day because he had messed up almost every self to find a maths solution series and received warnings more than the zeroes in maths quiz in his entire life.
But that wasn’t the only reason he remembered the day. There was something else when he withdrew a book from the physics column and met with a side profile of his crush. He was too immersed in whatever the book he was holding that he didn’t notice Jinyoung staring.
And Jinyoung took advantage of it wholehearted.
He refused to blink and took in every small feature of the deer boy.
The universe must have taken his time when he decided to make him and added a cute mole under his glossy brown eyes.
For some, the place and time would be clichè, where they stood just a meter away from each other without one’s knowing, and for the others, it would be romantic where one of them stared at the other through the shelf.
But for Jinyoung, it was lightweight.
The whole world around him stopped, and he could only hear him and himself.
The soft beating of his heart against his chest and echoing in his ears and the other’s fingers that ruffled onto the rough pages of the book.
Jinyoung cherished that memory in his heart because he had nothing other.
He never met the boy again after their graduation, and Jinyoung blamed himself for not attempting a try to pour out his feelings for him.
Months, and years passed, and the memory of the cute deer boy made a small home inside Jinyoung’s heart that he decorated with different paper hearts.
Until they finally met again.
Shy smile passing across the dining table, Jinyoung refused to blink same as he did back in his last year of high school.
“K-Kim Yonghee.”
Blank eyes peicering through him, the deer boy attempted a try to introduce himself, mind going in corners if he did something to receive those looks.
Yonghee..
The only things Jinyoung didn’t know was his name and hearing it as a introduction of his fiancé, Jinyoung didn't know his heart was beating or dancing, and his eyes were itcy or glossy with tears.
Jinyoung never believed in prayers, but today, he was shouting for the universe to let Yonghee be his home. Arrange marriage wasn’t in his to-do list, but he was glad today for his parents who chose Yonghee for him.
“Yonghee.” He repeated after slowly, and then again and again, and repeated it until his whole mind could only imagine a image of highschooler who held a book in library, and another where they stood side by side at front of asel and taking vows to be together forever.
Jinyoung believed they were always meant to be because this was what their destiny wrote for them.
Having warm hugs in mornings and slow dance in evenings. Jinyoung would never ask more than a small home with his childhood sweetheart.
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