14/05/24 - 17 days clean without self harm
"Bed Rotting, dirty feets, gacha reacts, tiktok and warm bed 24 hours everyday, 1 meal per day and the same in one year. Thats was... comfortable...
But now, with a almost health amont of food, Going to School, no bed Rotting, taking showers and on my best era After years, its almost if i am in hell.
I dont feel comfortable anymore, this healthy position I put myself on is Uncomfortable. I feel traped on my on life, more than before. Its more hard to try than bed rott in my room. Its more easy to kill myself than woke up, its easy to eat all day, Than hold myself to not let my eating poblems speak.
The word "Uncomfortable" seems to fit my actual state, I think. So lets call this chapter "Uncomfortable".
UNCOMFORTABLE
Uncomfortable to eat, seeing my body make waves of fat. Uncomfortable to sleep, my phone wont let me. Uncomfortable to feel, uncomfortable to live, uncomfortable, uncomfortable, uncomfortable, uncomfortable, uncomfortable, uncomfortable uncomfortable uncomfortable UNCOMFORTABLE.
I just wanted to feel... Comfortable.
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