Draco's dilemma: love or loyalty

chapter 5- disappointment

Draco's POV

*A couple of days later*

I just returned from an outing to Hogsmede where I met with some of the dark lords followers to discuss what was currently happening and how Harry Potter is plotting against  Voldemort.

That idiot Potter... he should just duel the dark lord so all this rubbish with the prophecy can be completed and so I can get far away from his grasp as possible.

I am walking towards my friends Blaise, Crabbe, and Goyle when I notice her...

what is she doing? did I not make myself clear enough? I told her it was a mistake.

"Hey Draco, did have fun in Hogsmeade?" Blaise says to me putting an arm around Vivians shoulders. I flinch and then clear my throat "eh just the usual nothing exciting. anyways I have homework for potions so I will see you later." I make eye contact with her as I brush past her.

Why is she with Blaise? she just met him days ago why are they friends all of the sudden? ugh whatever that means she isn't my problem anymore.

Vivians POV

*5 hours earlier*

I am packing up my bag after charms and talking to Hannah when I see Blaise out of the corner of my eye all alone. this is my chance to sweep in, I think to myself as I finish packing up and say bye to Hannah and run over to Blaise.

"Hey Vivian, how did talking to Draco go?" Blaise says as I approach him. "So that is what I was coming over to discuss with you..." looking around realizing that there were still a bunch of people in the charms classroom I said "can we talk somewhere more private?" "uh sure. Vivian, you are scaring me, did he hurt you?" I dragged him into an empty corridor.

"Just hear me out and then you can respond ok?" he nodded.

"OK, so basically I confronted Draco and apologized to him and in the middle of my apology he cut me off by kissing me and then I told him to stop because I deserve an apology first. Then all he said to me in response was that it was a mistake and he had to go and then just left me. So I've been talking to my friends about it and I was hoping you'd wanna, give Draco a little hell. What I mean by that is Draco needs to realize he messed with the wrong girl. So I devised a plan that you and I could pretend to pursue each other to make Draco jealous and ultimately beg forgiveness." I finish breathing out.

"Vivian you are bloody freaking mental...I love it. I have been so bored lately so I would love to get a rise out of Draco...however Draco is super possessive so he might absolutely lose his mind if we do this." Blaise says in response. all I say back is "I know"

Then I grabbed his hand and started walking towards the great hall for lunch.

This should grab his attention. I think to myself smiling at Blaise.

*after Draco said he had potions homework*

I turn to Blaise "ugh I don't think it worked. maybe he truly doesn't care about me and just wanted to shock me into shutting up when he kissed me." I shrugged

"Vivian, what do you mean? did you not see him physically flinch when I put my arms around you? he totally felt some possessiveness anyways I have to go but I can walk you to your dorm?"

"um sure"

We walked back to my dorm in silence and I couldn't help but be unsettled by Draco's reaction.

Draco's POV

Why was she with Blaise? Why did her interests change? ugh Draco stop focusing on her you have known her for like a week.

*a week later*

It has been a grueling week between practice, homework, and having to watch Vivian cuddle up next to Blaise. what she sees in him I do not know. Anyways I am exhausted and the last thing I needed was someone breathing down my neck.

"Hello, Draco." My father says as he approaches me. "Hello father. What are you doing here at Hogwarts? Are you on official business?" My father doesn't answer my question.

"Have you been focusing on your studies like we discussed?" my father asked me.

"Yes father, I have committed all of my time to studying and practicing." "I feel like I have no time to do anything else" I mumble.

"Draco, don't mumble, it is unbecoming. Man up and speak to your father or say nothing at all. Do I make myself clear?"

"Crystal clear. I am just exhausted and don't want to carry out his wishes any longer. I yearn for pea-" I am cut off by my father pinning me against the wall arm across my throat.

"Draco do not ever make such nonsense claims ever again. Do you hear me or you will face worse punishments. Now don't disappoint me more."

I can't breathe. He releases me and tears are streaming down my face as I gasp for air . I look up to see my father walking away. Then I turn my head in the opposite direction and I see her standing there like she had just seen a ghost.

Vivian's POV

oh merlin... one second I was just walking back from class and the next second I witnessed Draco's father basically strangling him. I was frozen in shock and all I heard Dracos dad say was "now don't disappoint me more." as he released his teary-eyed son. Draco was gasping for breath and shaking when he looked in my direction and we Locked eyes.

There was so much sadness in his eyes but it quickly turned to anger when he shot up and started running towards me. I turned on my heel and started running as fast as my legs could carry me. However it was not fast enough.

Next thing I know Draco has grasped my wrist and spun me around to face him. 

"Vivian, what do you think you are doing snooping around and eavesdropping on conversations that clearly weren't meant for your ears? huh? are you so eager to destroy me that you are searching for any sliver of information? huh? VIVIAN ANSWER ME!!" Draco roars in my face as tears are streaming down his face and he is shaking.

I cup his face wiping tears "Draco it's ok. I wasn't trying to eavesdrop. I just walked by and was in shock. I am not trying to hurt you, I promise. Ok?" a guttural sob tore through his throat as he fell to the floor. "shh.. Draco its ok you are safe alright? he is gone." I start to rub his back and then I sit next to him and I can feel a cry for help when he starts to clutch on to me so tightly.

my heart is breaking for him. Is this what he has to endure? Is his father really that vile? He stops shaking and then he just rests his head against my shoulder as we both sit in silence.

"Draco, I am so sorry." I say as I give him a big side hug. After a moment he clears his throat "eh, I am just sorry you had to see it. Anyways I should go." he says, breaking free of my grasp and standing up. I stand up as well, smoothing my skirt in a state of awkwardness, "uh me too... I hope you feel better. bye." I feel tears brimming in my eyes as I turn to run back to my dormitories.

He is so hot and cold. I can't read him. I am so sick of trying to make him realize his wrong doings. I am sick of pretending that his vile words and oddly tender actions did not affect me. It's been weeks of my little plan and he doesn't even seem to care. I feel like I have been used and I am so angry.

I am running with tears streaming down my face when I bump into Blaise "Vivian?" he calls after me as I continue straight to my dorms.