The Wall

The Wall Part 43

Emily's POV

"Pain is a perfect misery, the worst of evils and excessive overturns all patience"-John Milton Paradise lost

What is pain?

Pain is an undescribeable feeling. It's the most strongest feelings you've ever feel and you've ever had. It can change your life in a flick of a second. It may cause permanent damage into your heart, your soul, your whole body. You can try to forget it, but it will never leave. It leave scarfs in every nerve you have. Opening your eyes into something new, the light or darkness. You can't resist it. It'll stay forever.

So what is darkness?

It's a place which will change your everything, it will define who you really are as a person. It's a cold and an empty feelings which will drive you crazy. You see nothing, you feel nothing. It will make you do stuff that you will not think clearly, because that empty feelings that you feel in the darkness, you won't process 'a thing' that you'll do. You just do what darkness told you, you won't feel a thing. Only emptiness filled your soul, body, your everything. No escapes from darkness. Once you come to darkness, it will never let you go.

"Emily" Lydia came to the room and making me back to reality "you've been sitting here all night, have you sleep?" She ask

"What time is it?" I ask as I looked up at her and finding her giving me a hot tea

I take the tea and sip it slowly cause I don't want to cause pain on my tongue. I'm tired and bored of pain "it's 7 o'clock" she say and I nodd

"You didn't sleep are you?" I let out a soft sigh and shake my head briefly before sip my tea again. I can hear her sighing under her breath as she tie her hair to a bun

"Where's harry?" She ask. As soon as I heard his name, I choke on my tea and cough. I look away from her gaze and looking at the backyard from the window

"Ouhh, sorry" she say "are you alright?" She ask

I shrug a little and forcing a smile to her

"Trying to be" I say softly and by that, Lyd rubb my back and pulling me closer to her, feeling warmth by her hug

Knock knock

We both looked up and find mom standing at the door, wearing all black while her hair turns to a sleek bun. Her face still looks awful.

"Can I talk to Em, for a moment?" She ask and Lydia leave us.

"Hey mom" I say tiredly while brushing my hair to the back of my head

"Hey darling" she say and sit next to me on the bed "You're not coming?" She ask

"Of course I will, but just give me a moment" I say and she nodd

"You okay?" She finally ask

I take a deep breath before I speak while clearing my throat to speak

"I'm trying" I say honestly to her. I can feel my face turning to warmth and my eyes are full with tears now. I try to deny the tears. I'm tired of crying

"He called your name you know" she suddenly ask after a brief silence between us.

We all drowning in sadness, especially mom.

"What do you mean?"

"He woke up," she say while brushing my hair

"He woke up? Wha-what did he say?"

"He kept calling your name, he said that he love you so much, he made me promise to never leave you alone, to take care of you" she say as she wipe her fallen tears