7 words ruined my life.
2023 was a horrible year. So many things happened that made it hard for me to speak without stammering, walk somewhere without someone I wasn't comfortable with or even walk.
My dog died in October, my mom lost her job around that time but I lost something that can't be replaced.
My ability to feel safe at school. A friend had went off on me after I only said 7 words.
"Sorry, things have been hard for me"
They yelled and swore at me. I didn't feel safe at school anymore.
I didn't speak much anymore and if I did my voice came out as an almost unhearable sound.
It has been like this for months. People saying.
"Oh, you would look so cute with him"
I like someone else, you ruined my friendship with him.
"Shut up, your voice is annoying,"
"I don't care"
I'll be quiet if you want me to, I can't handle another person yelling at me.
"Eww she has acne"
I'M INSECURE ABOUT IT PLEASE DON'T SAY IT
"That's a big scar"
I have bigger ones from peoples words and looks I get.
"Shut up you gay, jewish woman you have no rights"
IM LITERALLY NOT GAY IM POMO AND IM AN AMERICAN I HAVE THE SAME RIGHTS AS YOU.
"Short"
I get it from my amazing mom.
You really are stupid. That's what is in my head all the time and I can't stop it.
Glares and hurtful words from myself and others is what fills my day.
Today one of the people that went off on me walked in the Girl Scouts room crying. She shed a total of 3 tears-I shed thousands if not millions from the words she said. I went through that almost completely on my own. No one hugged me, no one told me everything was going to be okay. 3 tears and everyone was all over her.
This ruined my happy day. I had gotten 100% on something involving math for the first time ever. A practice test.
Later I ended up leaving because I felt unsafe around them. Our school is supposed to be safe and happy. I CAN'T SPEAK WITHOUT FEELING LIKE MY RIGHTS AS A HUMAN BEING HAVE BEEN STRIPPED FROM ME.
Middle school is living hell and I brought up the flames with 7 words.
