Just being myself

Chapter 2

Lilithia's p.o.v
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I was always a puppet..
A doll...
A marionette...
A maid...
I'm no one..
I'm nothing...
I always thought of my self like that..
But then it became worse..
When I first met Sam..
I tried to be his friend because some kids says he is rude and always hurt everybody...but mostly he hurt girls...
I ignored it...
I totally ignored those comments...
I ignored that one option of saving my self from him...
But I didn't..
Instead,karma is teaching me a lesson..
And I became his puppet..
He insulted me..
Even when he acted he never did...
He fought with me..
And lied he never lay a finger on me..
He threw at me chairs and tables..
When he says we're just playing around...
He treats me like I'm nothing...
Like I'm a lost soul of a puppet...
But then he was kind to me...
When I should've just punched him in the face...
Then he treated me like I'm something special...
Then he make me feel like crap..
Then he acts so lovey-dovey to me.
Then he treats me like I'm nothing to him..
It's like your being played with...and I can't help it but fall in his trap...
His words..
Those hurtful words that come out from his mouth then those sweet words that made me wanna smile for him...
It's like I'm in between two paths...
One path is bad
While the other is good..
I'm in the middle of those two paths...

Then there's that one time that made me...hate him forever..so much that I began to like him...

Have you ever felt like you've made something so special to you and then it was broken away from your grasp and you just felt like your entire world crumbles down...

That's how I felt..
When he broke something special to me..
Something that I want to treasure for ever and when I grow up..
I wanna look at this treasure that I love and smile..ad I remember all the good times I held this treasure with me on my journey in life..
That special treasure was a book...
Yes, I know,I know..it sounds lame..
But I made that book...
My father gave it to me and I really love it..
I didn't say the word loved because I still love it...

He never really meant it when he says he was sorry...
Or that's just how I feel...
Then I just stuck being his puppet..
Cause..he already hurted a lot of girls...
I don't want my friends to he his next victim to fall in his traps..
So I stayed his puppet for two years...
Until that person came into my life...
Like god has send me this person to help me through...
I really love her from the bottom of my heart..and there's no way in hell..that someone will ever change my view for that special person..
Cause she's my sister..
I won't give up on her no matter what's the consequences are..
Cause that's what family means..
Family means..no one gets left behind..
As long as that saying goes..
I will never ever leave her...never..
Cause she's too important to me to loose..
She's my halo..