Maybe || Yang Jungwon

18

A month had gone by.

And you were back with Sayeon and Jake.

Still our friend of course.

And then once Sayeon and Jake were gone to revise for their test.

And we were playing truth or dare.

I asked you for a secret.

You looked at me in the eye.

The way you did last year.

And sighed.

'I'm dating Sayeon.'

3 words, felt like a pang to my heart.

I saw it coming.

Yet it hurt.

I didn't like you.

But why does my heart ache when I think of you guys.

I guess it explains your attitude.

You weren't really clingy with her, you acted like you were just friends.

Sayeon didn't like physical touch.

But I know you did.

And it hurts because you changed yourself just for her.

And it hurts because you chose someone you had to change yourself for, over someone you could truly be yourself for.

And it took me time to realise.

A bit too long to realise.

You ignored me because you didn't want to date me.

You rejected me because you didn't want to date me.

You wanted her.

You liked her.

You liked my best friend.

And maybe you did like me.

But not as much as you liked her.

Maybe the way you are around her is the real Yang Jungwon.

And maybe, just maybe you forced yourself to act the way you did to me, for me.

Maybe the real you isn't who I thought it was,

Sweet,caring,bubbly and clingy.

Maybe it was,

Cold, rude, hypocritical and a liar.