Arrogant hearts [ 傲慢な心 ] : Gojo Satoru

Chapter 18

"What's wrong?" It's a phrase you heard a lot in your life. "Do you even have friends?" Was also a phrase that you heard a lot. You used to get emotional of those phrases and now you can laugh it off. Maybe crying does help sometimes. A lot.

The drive back to the dorms was silent. He didn't understand why you were so quiet suddenly. You looked like you were in a deep thought.

"Something's wrong, right?" This was the first time someone had asked it in a different way. A way you couldn't say 'I'm fine' 

"yeah, but it's not a big deal" Your shoulders withered together made Gojo wonder if it was a bad call. An ex? An accident? "What did you guys do after I left?" You broke the silence again. Not letting Gojo ask about your personal life or problems.

"We had a bad mission, as you know... and I was kinda obsessed with getting stronger. I wasn't able to look at my surroundings carefully. I think that was how I coped with... losing people around me"

"I get it" Your eyes fell to your thighs. "I wonder if things would change if I had stayed that day"

"It was your dad, don't say things like that... it was meant to be"

The car was silent. The silence was so loud, but none of the two were bothered by it. Because the both of you heard even louder noises around you. Even louder screams.

"I was angry at you before though" He blurted out. "You left when we needed people, mentally and physically" He added. His blindfold wasn't the only thing you wanted to strip off of him.

"I'm so-"

"I was, not now" He smiled "You didn't even tell me before you flew, I didn't even know when you would even come back" 

"I wasn't going to come back"

"I know, that's why I was kinda disappointed"

"It's really bad, it's not like you are going to the supermarket, it's a country... more than 10,000 kilo meters" His lips were in a straight line. He was always a mysterious man. And the blindfold wasn't doing any good.

"we weren't even on good ter-"

"Let's stop with that excuse... you wanted to ghost me"

"I didn't even care about you, you were the least of my worries" You couldn't help but blurt it out. It might seem mean, but it was what it was. You didn't want to tell a bully that you were never going to meet him again. Which fool does that? "You made fun of me, you bullied me"

"I'm sorry" His words were honey being poured on to a wound.

"I don't think being embarrassed infront of a whole school made any good for me even in The States, I will think about the apology" You weren't going to admit that you didn't think of manners when leaving Japan. For someone who hates manners, this should not be a big deal for Gojo.

You rushed out of the car without even looking at him when saying goodbye. You jumped on your bed and clenched your jaws. Your emotions were a mystery.

"Y/N... you really are childish" You heard a soft voice from the corner of your bedroom. You didn't want to raise your head to look. But the voice felt like home. 

His long hair in a half bun. His Kesa had the most weird colors you could ever imagine together, but everything felt just right. Just right to make his face the center of attention. His bangs just the same as you could remember. His smile soft enough for you to sit up on your bed.

"He was wrong, but he's strong. You know strong equals to right... don't you?" He took a seat on the edge of your bed. "it's funny how I have to come to you explain this to you... you are also in the wrong... He did regret everything he did to you after you left. You learned him a lesson."

"Senpai" Your whispers buzzed around the room.

"He learned a lot of lessons at once, you are forgiving, aren't you? He had to endure a lot. Do you know what's most painful in this world?"

"What?" You asked, you were kneeling on your mattress.

"Living while being strong" A strand of his hair falling to his face. "You have to live with the pain of losing people close to you"

"You are taking his side, senpai"

"He will find you this time, even though you aren't going for long..." His eyes looked like they were the epitome of kindness. The man who slaughtered a whole village. "Because now, he's strong, cunning and richer" 

"You pity him"

"He cries himself to sleep, he doesn't drink"

"How wo-"

"I'm not alive... I see everything, I will look at both... no, everyone of you... I have no anger towards the school"

He's not alive. He's not alive. He's not alive.

Your hand flew to his cheek only for him to be smoke and disappear. Your hand clenched around nothing.

Your eyes cracked open. The wetness on your cheeks, pillow and hair. 

"Where is Gojo?" There was no single human, sorcerer or a student who hadn't heard it from your mouth the next morning. Except for Yaga.

"Sensei... where is Gojo?" You asked while bursting open his door.

"You could always knock" He said calmly, his hands and eyes busy with the dolls he made.

"Where  is Gojo Satoru?" Your impatient voice had no respect.

"I forgot, you are working with that brat" Yaga looked at you in disappointment.

"Tell me. Where. Is. Gojo. Satoru" You leaned closer to him while swiping his dolls away from the small table infront of him.

"The higher ups assigned him to a mission... it's a dangerous one, no information was said more about it" Yaga glared at his dolls and back at you "Control your cursed energy, young lady"

You could feel your hair falling back to it's place. "He'll come back" You took a step back and bowed to him "sorry about the mess. I am leaving to USA in two days" 

"Gojo sensei's still not back" Yuuji said with a small pout "You are also leaving us, aren't you guys a little mean?"

"Maybe you can bring us with you to the USA" Kugisaki smiled.

"I am going to my private stuff, or else I would have taken you guys with me" You said while packing up your bag.

"Tch, selfish" Her voice was almost as pouty as Yuuji's. 

"Are you okay?" Fushiguro asked while helping you with the measuring of the bags.

"I am, I trust him. He's strong" You said, while folding your clothes.

"I am asking about you"

"Huh? oh, yeah. yeah, I am" You looked away while Yuuji and Nobara giggled while nudging each other.

I am leaving for the USA for a couple of weeks. I will come back this time, won't take too many years. Sorry for being childish that night... I wasn't thinking clearly that day... Your apology is also accepted. I don't want to hold a grudge on you. You are strong. Not only physically. I respect you for that, Gojo senpai. 
                                                                                                                                                               ~your Kouhai, Y/N~