Arrogant hearts [ 傲慢な心 ] : Gojo Satoru

Chapter 15

"He's just being friendly since... I'm his junior, he's not following me" you replied. You knew that, he's just being friendly, just like Adam was. You sighed "I was just looking at them, thinking if I should give them to him or to use them" you mumbled, defeatedly.

"Just keep it, learn to be more materialistic, L/N sensei. Life is too short to be a nice little girl all the time" Kugisaki said while turning around to leave. Her words were true, you were the one who's acting nice, were you really nice? or did you enjoy seeing others smile when you be nice? you never knew.

"Where are you going?" You asked, a small smile playing on your lips.

"out eating, you wanna join?" she looked over her shoulder at you with a small smirk.

You were full, too full. You didn't want to lay down on the bed just now. So taking out a book it was. You started reading a few pages before being interrupted by a knock on your door. You opened the door to see Gojo, pursing his lips while leaning on the door frame.

"So you weren't asleep" He said dramatically with a accent.

"who are you trying to imitate?" You asked with a small smile, you were surprised by him suddenly appearing here, and knocking, mosly.

"I don't know, I just wanted to be like that" He smiled and turned to face you. "so? wanna go for a walk?"

"You just emerged here to go for a walk?" You asked, raising an eyebrow. You couldn't deny that he was funny.

"what if I did?" He tilted his head, expecting an answer from you.

You took your jacket and put it on, since walking would help your tummy anyway. "I'd still join you" you mumbled and the both of you started walking. The grass had a good smell after the small shower that evening. The night itself had this soothing smell and feeling you loved.

"You have something to tell me?" You asked, knowing he wouldn't have come here without a reason. 

"Nah, just wanted someone to bother" He smiled cheekily.

"well, thank you for the... trouble last night" You mumbled, you felt like you were in debt to him, and you hated it.

"It's nothing, I was just helping a co worker" His voice was soothing. But why did you feel weird in your stomach, you wondered. Why did it had this hollow feeling in your heart?

"yeah, but still" You muttered and sighed 

"something wrong?"

'I think I'm getting too attached' you wanted to utter so badly. To his eyes, to his smile, to his voice, to his lame jokes and pranks, to him looking at you, to him standing, sitting even when he is serious about something. "No, just... ate too much"

"mhm, we've all been there" He didn't fall for it, it can be seen from his face. "You won't buy that house, will you?" He asked, his voice had no emotion.

'Did I do something wrong?' You wanted to ask, you knew you did. You wanted him away from you. Would he even say yes? He was the guy who had sex with any girl he liked. You were the girl who was saving your first time for someone special. You were Polar opposite to him. You wanted him away from your heart. You knew it wouldn't end good with him. Yet you wanted to touch him, get closer to him, you wanted him, you liked looking at him, you liked talking with him, you wanted to laugh at his jokes, you wanted him away from you, you should say yes. But you didn't want to. He was in a different league.

"Y/N? Is there something you want to tell me?" He asked.

"I... don't have much friends" You mumbled, a lump in your throat. "I'm happy now, here"

"You have me"

'No one stays forever' You were the one who gets hurt from just a one word. You were weak. You were scared. This is what's best for you. For everyone else. "Are we friends?"

"We are"

Tears were threatening to spill your eyes, you were getting more and weak infront of him. 'What if I wanted more?' clenching your jaw, you looked up. when everything felt alright, you looked at him "I'm sorry, I have zero social skills, I keep mistaking words and actions for other things. I hope you can be more straightforward with me in the future... I need clarification on things" You sighed "I... will buy the house"

"I hope you be more honest with yourself more" His words were carving in your heart painfully. He wasn't being mean, he was just telling you.

"I hate it too" you smiled bitterly.

'I'll wait till she's comfortable with being open and tell me about her feelings'

'I'm gonna wait till  he honestly tells me to stop being stupid'

"Y/N?" You jumped at the voice booming behind you. You turned to see Nanami, loosening his tie. He looked angry, or was it how he always looked like.

"Nanamin, why are you here?" Gojo asked, his eyebrows furrowed in annoyance.

"I just finished a mission, came here to report" He said while taking hold of your arm. It was a firm yet intimidating touch.

"Uh... finished perfectly?" You asked while looking at his grip on your arm in confusion.

"no, got messy, had to work overtime" He said while looking down at you.

"Uh-oh, someone got into your bad side" You smiled, No one laughed. It was so quiet you could hear the crickets chirping. 

"Pfft" Gojo laughed and gently gave a nudge to your free arm.

"Thank you" you said. a small petty smile on your face.

"I have a talk with Y/N, so if you'd excuse us" Nanami said to Gojo.

"I'm actually in a middle of a talk with her, you could leave us if you are so polite" He said with an annoyed sigh.

"Okay guys, let's be a little more mature, why don't we all talk together?" You asked with a small smile

"No" Both of their voices came out as filled with hatered and annoyance.

"Riiight, why don't you two talk then? I am tired and don't want any drama, I am sleepy... so Good night" you smiled and tried to take you arm from Nanami but he didn't budge and you were between two guys doing a staring contest. You felt so annoyed by them being so childish.

"I know why you are floating around Y/N" Gojo said with furrowed eyebrows. the mood got colder in a second.

"I was trying to stay quiet, but you started this" Nanami said, his voice dangerous and his jaw clenching, scaring you. You've never seen him like this outside of the missions. "What did you do with her yesterday? Why did you bring her to your ....house, huh?" that awkward pause made you look at Gojo.

Who glanced at you and back at Nanami "I didn't touch her with any ill intention"

"So you did touch her"

"He didn't do anything wrong, Nanami... stop this" You said in a strict tone, you felt so embarrassed and annoyed.

"Even if I touch her, she's a grown adult, so stop acting like her dad" Gojo started at him emotionlessly.

"T-That's right" You mumbled "I know you are worried, but I'm fine" You said in a softer tone.

"promise?"

"Promise" you smiled.

"CUT!" Gojo clapped loudly in between you and Nanami's faces  "I'm not a bad person as he tells you, you know?" He asked "Well, I am popular in bed though" He smirked.

Nanami rolled his  eyes and you ignored Gojo, stepping on his feet was intentional as you were mad, and a little hurt as he admitted it out loud. Yet, Gojo didn't use his infinity. and you never noticed that.