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Niko Caddix
Age: twenty
"I gave my all and did my best."
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Xaira Reeves
Age: twenty- two
"I leave no regrets."
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Niko leans against the door frame of their shared bathroom with his eyes focused on Xaira. Watching her continue with her actions that he was against but couldn't fight himself so in a way, he understood.
"We promised each other that we'd stop this week." He sighs, watching her break skin once again, vital fluid dripping into the porcelain sink. She removes the thin piece of metal and looks up, meeting eyes with his reflection only for her's to return their focus.
"We did but you did it too, I saw them last night when you slept, just as fresh as my own." Niko's ivory teeth sink into his bottom lip in shame. He hated that even with the love of his life he couldn't keep his word when it came to the mutilation of his being and it pained him but his addiction to physical pain always outweighed the mental and he just had to release it, that was the only way to quiet that chaotic mind of his.
He steps further into their bathroom, resting his chin upon Xaira's shoulder as the two lock eyes once again, seeing the sorrow hidden within the windows of their souls. Niko's wasn't very much hidden due to his sunken eyes and Xaira was only able to hide hers with concealer but she was currently bare faced, displaying every emotion she refused to release from her full lips.
"I'm sorry." Her voice cracks and soon tears pool within her brown eyes but Niko wipes them before they get a chance to fall.
"You never have to be sorry with me, I still love you.... I always will until my dying breath." He admits, feeling his throat tighten with each word that departed from his lips.
Xaira nods and places the thin piece of metal beside her which gives Niko the perfect opportunity to pick it up and toss it in the toilet. He then flushes it, watching it spin in the whirlwind of water before disappearing into the pipes. "Have you packed all of your things?" He inquires, pulling at the roll of tissue, winding it around his pale, tattooed hand before tugging it lightly, breaking its connection with the rest of the roll.
Xaira shakes her head then turns towards him, leaning against the counter as her dark eyes look into his. "I have to pick out three outfits, right?"
Niko nods, gently wiping her skin ridding it of crimson. "Yes and if I have input, I'd love to see you in that summer dress of yours, the one with the slit." He smirks, bringing her wrist to his plump lips for a gentle kiss. Xaira blushes and tucks her bottom lip, thinking of the dress he loved seeing her in.
It didn't matter the season or time of day, every time she put it one Niko was left in awe gawking over the way it graciously hugged her slim thick frame. "Hmmm I guess I can add that but only if you bring your Bart tank." She wiggles her thin eyebrows, referring to his Bart Simpson tank top that gave the perfect view of the tattoos along his biceps and forearms. Other than the endless love he was able to provide her with she admired every single tattoo along his light skin. She didn't care if they only made sense to him nor the fact that a few of them overlapped one another.
It was art and a form of self expression.
Others judged and ridiculed him for it, down to his own mother but Xaira reminded him every time her eyes landed on his ink skin how much she loved them.
"Already in my suitcase." He smirks, pointing his chin to his half full suitcase with the clothes for their short trip.
"Help me pack mine?" Xaira tilts her head and grabs his wrist, pulling him further into their messy bedroom they were in the middle of packing up.
"Have you told your mom or sister?" Xaira questions, gathering a few sleep shirts and shorts. Niko shakes his head and sits at the foot of their bed, watching her fill her arms with the clothes that were once on wire hangers.
"My sister will be mad as hell and my mom will try to talk me out of it and if I listen, I just might back out." He sighs knowing that his mother had the gift of changing his mind even when he had it set in stone. At times he hated it even though he knew that her intentions were of nothing but purity.
"What about you, have you told yours?"
Xaira shakes her head, dropping her clothes on their bed. She begins to search through them, tossing the ones she wouldn't miss to the side while folding the ones she was taking with her before laying them in her suitcase. "I'm not telling her." Niko knits his brushy brows and looks her way with his head tilted.
"Why not?" Xaira continues to pack, wanting to ignore his question but the longer she felt his dark eyes piercing into the side of her skull she couldn't so she sighs and scoots her clothes over, sitting down beside him.
"She doesn't need to know, I want her to know after everything is finalized." Niko nods and pulls her close, letting her rest her head on his shoulder as he rubs her arm in a soothing manner.
In the four years of the two being together, he found out that Mrs. Reeves was ten times worse than his own mother, sticking her nose in places it didn't belong to the point Xaira had to go no contact more than once.
The two had just got back on speaking terms six months ago and Xaira found it best to keep what the two had in-store to themselves, not wanting to hear the input of her mother who didn't walk in her shoes let alone felt the way she did.
"Maybe give her a heads up at least." he suggests, glancing at his own suitcase placed by their bedroom door, waiting to be stored in the backseat for their journey.
Xaira purses her lips in deep thought only to shake her head once again.
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This Book is rated M
Warning ⚠️
This story contains foul language, sexual scenes alcohol and drug usage along with mental health crisis blood and gore. If at any point this story is too overwhelming or triggers you I advise you to put your mental health first and stop reading all together
