Digging Deep: A Libero's Love Match

(8) Apologies

ELLA POV

To: Ella
message mo daw si Ly kung nasundo kana.

From: Jema
Hindi nya ko masusundo, nahihiya lang ako kay ate Ly :((

From: Jema
Can you pick me up here? pleasee

To: Ella
so sakin hindi ka nahihiya?

Hindi na sya nag reply after that so minessage ko ulit sya

To: Ella
Kukunin kolang yung key ng car ko sa loob ng unit ko, hintayin mo nako.

From: Jema
Yey thank you!

I wonder why I always listen to my conscience. I knew I needed rest, but I still went to the training location just to pick up Jema.

Binusinahan ko sya to make sign na sumakay na

But she refused not to seat here in front

" oh ba't dyan ka sa likod?"

" eh saan ba dapat?"

" ikaw bahala, nakasakay kana edi dyan kana lang"

" ang harsh mo talaga this past few weeks sakin"

Lumabas naman sya akala ko kung saan pupunta, lumipat lang pala dito sa harap

" saan ka?"

" dito sa harap"

" saan kita kako iddrop?"

She asked me to take her to her condo, and as I drove, we were both quiet. I didn't initiate conversation, and she only asked about my day and Basha. I answered her questions briefly.

She broke the silence

"Pangit ba ugali ko?"

I'm not answering her question until

" ah so pangit nga"

hindi ko padin sya ineentertain hanggang makarating na kami dito

ako unang bumaba sa car and ako nadin nag bukas ng pinto for her

" Thank you ah?" sabi ko

Dere-deretso padin sya sa paglalakad

Maya maya may sumusugod samin

And that was her partner

" actually ikaw yung issurprise ko Jema pero mukhang ako pa yata yung na surprise?" sabi nito

" what wrong did i do?"

Bago paman sila mag away i decided na mag paalam na, gusto kona silang hayaan labas na ako sa relation nila

" Excuse me, pero una nako Jema"

" you! go back here. why you always flirt with my girlfriend?"

" what did you say again?"

"  Bingi kaba? baka hindi ka nakaka intindi ng English? well ang sabi ko bakit ka nakikipag flirt sa girlfriend ko?"

" kausapin mo yang girlfriend mo Jema" i said and umalis na

JEMA POV

" Akala ko ba wala ka? Alam mo ba na ang tagal ko naghintay sa labas para lang may mahanap kung sino susundo sakin?"

" Sorry i was plan to surprise you naman eh"

" Tsaka ano yung sinasabi mo na Ella flirt me? nakakahiya ka!"

" Bakit ka guilty?"

" Alam mo umuwi ka muna sainyo, hindi ako natutuwa sa mga ginagawa mo"

I didn't allow him to follow me to my condo because I was deeply annoyed by his actions. What I felt ashamed kay ate Ly kanina pero doble yung hiya ko ngayon kay Ella. I'm hesitant to reach out to her and apologize because I'm certain she won't respond.

10 minutes away lang naman ako sa condo nya puntahan ko nalang siguro sya

Kinuha ko si Milo from his dog house para isama, i know na Milo can make Ella better

Paakyat nako ngayon sa unit nya, sana nandito sya

KNOCKK ... KNOCKK ... KNOCKK

Binuksan na nya

" Hi"

" ikaw nanaman? alam mo kaya nagagalit yung partner mo"

" sorry for what happened"

" okay na yun, pwede ka ng umalis maaga pa training bukas"

She was about to close the door but I couldn't stop hugging her

" please don't be too  harsh on me, sobrang sakit sa part ko na hindi tayo okay. later i realize na mas mabuti pa na mawalan ako ng partner kesa to lose a friend na katulad mo. sorry kung may nagawa ako na ayaw mo, sorry kung pangit yung ugali ko, sorry kung wala akong kwenta na kaibigan but please give our friendsh..."

" there's no something wrong with you Jema, and you okay? halos mabaliw ka nga nung mawala yung partner mo and now mas okay sayo na mawala sya kesa sa friend mo?"

" Because nafeel ko na hindi lang ako nawalan ng kaibigan kundi ng ate nadin na nag gguide sakin"

"Ate?"

May mali ba akong nasabi?

"sorry pero gabi na kailangan mo ng umuwi and kailangan ko na din magpahinga" dagdag nito

ELLA POV

Hindi ko na sya pinatapos magsalita I gently hold her hand palabas ng pinto

So Ate lang pala ko sa kanya? wow just wow

Nandito ako ngayon sa bahay nila Mae and ng boyfriend nya, I invite them na uminom sa bar pero hindi daw sila sanay ng maingay kapag umiinom gusto nila ng at peace lang kaya dito nalang kami sa kanila

"edi pagselosin mo para alam mo kung may feelings din sya sayo" - Mae

Sinabi ko sa kanila yung problem ko ngayon with Jema, she's comfortable naman to talk with, sya nadin yung nasasabihan ko even before pa sa Banko Perlas

" paano mag seselos eh ate ngalang tingin sakin nun"

" so feeling mo talaga na may feelings din sya sayo hahah"

sinamaan ko sya ng tingin, yung dalawang kilay ko magkasalubong nanaman

" hindi, ganto nalang teh"

Since friend ko naman sya, she can help me naman daw na mag panggap na may something about samin. I don't how it's going pero wala namang masama kung ittry

"Kadiri ate Ells never in my life naiimagine ko na magkakagusto ako sa babae, pero go na support kita"

" Ikaw din naman nakaisip"

" para sayo teh"

JEMA POV

What wrong did i do to receive that kind of treatment from her?

I hate her at first she is good at giving advice but as time goes on she will also destroy my mental health

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To: B
Sorry sa nangyari, forgive me please gusto lang talaga kitang  isurprise

From: Jema
yeah forget abt it

The excitement we once had seems like a distant memory. Our conversations have become predictable, and our time together feels more like a habit than a joy. I miss the spontaneity and the genuine laughter we used to share. Now, it feels like we're just going through the motions, pretending everything is fine.

I'm tired of the routine. There's no excitement in our relationship anymore; it feels lifeless. Every day, we go through the motions, and I can't help but wonder if we were ever really happy or if we were just pretending.