ELLA POV
" Ella gusto na kita."
when Jema uttered those words, my heart skipped a beat, and my mind went into overdrive trying to process what she just said. It was unexpected, catching me completely off guard. In that moment, I felt a rush of conflicting emotions flood through me, leaving me uncertain of how to respond.
Jema still had a girlfriend, and the thought of entertaining romantic feelings for her felt inherently wrong. I couldn't betray the trust and commitment they shared, no matter how strong the temptation. It was a moral dilemma that left me grappling with my own sense of integrity
I was also haunted by the fear of what might occur if I decided to act on my feelings. What if Jema and her girlfriend managed to mend their relationship, and I ended up being pushed aside, left with nothing but the remnants of a passing infatuation? The idea of being left heartbroken and alone in such a scenario was incredibly daunting for me. I wasn't certain I could handle the emotional fallout of investing myself in a situation that might ultimately lead to disappointment and loneliness.
" No Jema "
" Then? eto yung nararamdaman ko ngayon eh kasi ito yung pinapa feel mo sakin"
"maybe you're just misunderstanding what I'm showing to you"
" bakit? kasi gusto mo si Mae?"
"Yes" pagpapanggap ko
" Okay, thank you for clarifying and forget kung ano yung mga sinabi ko. Ate Ella!"
Binangga nya ako bago sya umalis kaya medyo na out of balance ako
....
I messaged Mae to see if Jema was in their room and she said she left so I went to tell her what happened earlier
" Hala ang tanga mo ate Ells, edi balewala lang tong pagpapanggap natin?" - Mae
"Hindi naman na balewala ah, kita mo nga nalaman ko na gusto nya din ako" sabi ko
" Tanga ka padin, sana manlang sinabi mo sa kanya na gusto mo din sya"
" Para saan? she still have partner, sa tingin mo kakayanin ng konsensya ko?"
" Hello ikaw na nga nagsabi ng ilang months na silang hindi nag uusap, ang hina mo naman teh. "
Maya maya biglang dumating si Jema
Dere deretso syang pumunta sa bed nya and nag talukbong sa kumot na parang bata
" Una nako Mae, good night"
Tinanguan nalang nya ako
Nandito nako sa room ni Ly and she peacefully sleeping
sanaol
A lot of things come to my mind about what happened earlier but I did the right thing
JEMA POV
" No Jema "
oh
" Then? eto yung nararamdaman ko ngayon eh kasi ito yung pinapa feel mo sakin"
"maybe you're just misunderstanding what I'm showing to you"
" bakit? kasi gusto mo si Mae?"
"Yes" pagpapanggap ko
" Okay, thank you for clarifying and forget kung ano yung mga sinabi ko. Ate Ella!"
After hearing Ella's words, I came to a halt. The realization that she had chosen Mae over me struck deep, leaving me with a profound sense of hurt. It was a painful truth to confront, knowing that despite my feelings, she had made her decision. In that moment, it felt like the ground had been pulled out from beneath me, leaving me reeling with the weight of rejection.
Had I misread the signals? Was there something I could have done differently? It felt like I had been blindsided by a reality I wasn't prepared to face.
at the end of the day, I had been true to myself
FUCK WOMEN, FUCK HER
DINNER
tinawag na kami para bumaba pero sinabihan ko si Mae na hindi ako makakasabay sa kanila, kasi masama yung pakiramdam ko
Ako nalang mag isa ngayon dito and ang gusto ko lang gawin ay matulog
" Jema?" si Ate Ly
I lay there, still as a statue, pretending to be asleep. The truth was, I couldn't bear the thought of facing Ella, not after what had transpired. The pain of her choosing Mae over me was still raw, a constant ache in my chest that I couldn't shake
As I lay there, enveloped in the darkness of my own thoughts, I couldn't help but wonder if things would ever be the same between us. Would the wounds inflicted by her decision ever heal, or would they remain as a constant reminder of what could have been? Only time would tell, but for now, all I could do was hide behind closed eyes, hoping that sleep would offer respite from the ache in my heart.
" Jema?" - Kyla
" Kailangan mong bumaba, hindi kami inallowed kumain eh kailangan daw kumpleto"
" huh?"
" please maya ka nalang ulit matulog"
I felt sorry to see her face like that parang nagugutom nadin talaga sya, so even though I felt bad and didn't want to see Ella, I went down with her
ELLA POV
" Tulog po coach eh" sabi ni Ly
"call her, walang kakain kapag hindi complete. this is our first night dapat diba kumpleto?" Sabi ng Coach namin
" Ako nalang po tatawag" sabi ni Kyla
" Unless naman makikinig sayo Kyla, eh hindi nga nakikinig kay ate Ly" Tots
" Sabi ni Ate Ly tulog, wala syang sinabi na ayaw sumama ni Jema"
Kyla is here and she's with Jema, the one empty seat is here next to me
I thought she was going to sit here but she took Kyla's place and moved her here next to me
We were eating now, I didn't mean to look at her pero bigla akong napatingin sa kanya
Her face is very serious
...
"Can you please choose peace over drama?" sabi ko sa kanya
Wala naman nakarinig kasi sinundan ko lang sya na papasok na room nya
" are you fucking kidding me?"
" kaya mo bang igive up yung friendship natin dahil sa kaartehan mo?"
She slapped me
" Sorry ah! sorry naging maarte ako akala ko kasi normal lang na ganto yung maging reaction kapag nareject eh, dapat pala masaya"
" Papaalala ko lang sayo na may girlfriend ka padin"
" Sa tingin mo kung ikaw yung nasa sitwasyon ko, anong gagawin mo? hihintayin ko syang dumating? knowing na hindi na ako masaya sa kanya?"
" panong hindi ka magiging masaya eh nag ffocus ka kasi sa mga bagay na hindi naman dapat"
" alam mo lahat nalang ng ginagawa ko laging mali sayo, santo kaba? "
Yung galit nya kanina mas dumoble na ngayon kaya hindi ko alam kung panong awat gagawin ko sa kanya
" wala akong balak makipag argue sayo, but please I hope na ma remain padin natin kung anong friendship meron tayo before"
" After what happened? No kalimutan mo na nakilala mo ko"
BINABASA MO ANG
Digging Deep: A Libero's Love Match
RomanceAs the newest addition to the team, Ella surprised when her friend persuades her to join to her friend's team. As time passed by she found herself increasingly drawn to Jema [her teammates ]who was broken that time
