Tired

Bother

Author's note:
So our little baby Rain is sad again, so there is a little piece of Rain's mind 🥺 This is going to be short. 
English is not my first language, sorry for all the mistakes.
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Am I bothering him?

I feel like I am. I feel like everything I do is a bother.

Like, all is meaningless.

He doesn't say anything, but I can sense it in the way he talks to me, the way he looks at me. The way he doesn't touch me.

We've grown apart. Like I'm not welcome here anymore.

And that's just probably my mind playing tricks to me, but it just feels so real.

The way he works on his things, and I'm just able to look at him from afar. Fearing that if I talk he would snap.

And all my dreams would broke.

He is going to break our engagement, he is going to leave me. With all my thoughts and all my problems and...

Rain, just breathe.

I really try to calm myself down.

To stay okay.

To be happy.

But it's just too difficult when I don't feel okay.

- I just need a hug.

The tears falling from Rain's eyes, his breathing fastening. The lips almost bleeding.

Phayu gets up from his desk and runs to his fiancé.

-Hey, baby, what's wrong? Hey, come here. I'm here, Phi is here.

He hugs him tight, stroking his hair, sensing how is boy cries, and hyperventilates on his chest. He starts humming their song.

-Phi doesn't love me anymore. Am I bothering? I can go back home if you want. I know I'm too much to handle. I'm so sorry.

Rain tries to break the hug, but Phayu's arms tighten around him.

-Rain, listen to me. You are not a bother. You are my sweet boy. My darling. My wifey. And future husband. I love you. I love you so much. You could never be a bother to me. I know it's hard and your mind is spiralling, but believe me. You are my everything, and I would never. Never. Let you go. Come here now, shhh, you can cry all you want. Let it out. It's okay sweet boy.

-Phi Phayu I love you so much.

Phayu cleans Rain's tears, with a loving gaze, and smiles a little, answering him with a sweet I love you too my darling. He leans in, kissing him lovingly.

All work is left for another day, his Rain needs him, and he is not going to ignore him. And he is the most important thing in his life.