i have lost something
it feels like i will always carry this feelings,
no matter what age i may be,
no matter which stage of my life i may be in.
something will always be missing
i miss my curiosity
i miss my competitiveness
i miss being the 1st
i miss having a group of friends
i miss going to school
i miss mom
i miss my old room
i miss my grandpa
i miss not realising
i miss my sadness
i miss the depth which came with it
i miss my poetry
i miss being a nerd
i miss experimenting with clothes
i miss having dreams
i miss feeling helpless
i miss not being in charge
i miss my old self
and tomorrow
i will miss myself, writing this
i am aware, of how silly it is
of how easily we forget how pain feels like
only because it already passed
but you know
this moment will pass, as well
and eventually become beautiful
