Beneath Holy Ground

Chapter Twenty Seven- Lust or Love

Video Is not mine but its super cute :)

Claire's Pov

"Claire and I will get breakfast" Jill suggested brightly and I turned to look at the brunette. The brunette volunteered us rather brightly one would believe I was actually in on this idea. I offered a soft smile but truly I was on fire. I don't believe I was your average woman as I stood to be far from domesticated and would not get a man in my presence breakfast so easily.

For Pete's sake I ordered meals far more than I actually prepared them.

Was Jill not informed of my tomboyish ways by my older brother? I don't think beckoning to a man's request when that man had two hands and healthy feet was never in my book. My smile grew far more awkward by the minute.

"We are?" I stared at Jill in utmost confusion, Jill offering a friendly smile.

"Yes Claire, they haven't slept the way we did. It is the very least we could do for their discomfort of the night" she stated and I rubbed my eyes while Leon shook his head at me.

Jill spoke of the men not sleeping the way we did so casually. The way you slept Jill, your snores prevented me from sleeping in any way.

"Claire is like a street cat Jill, it is in its nature to be vile" Christopher stated and I crossed my arms with a flat expression.

"I am ready when you are Jill, all the reason to bond with my sister and forget I have a mean older brother" I said this while smirking at Chris.

When we left the room and was far from earshot I spoke.

"Leon and I aren't dating you know" I clarified and Jill chuckled.

"And that prevents you from getting the guy some breakfast?" She asked and my eyes widened in horror. My cheeks grew warm in embarrassment.

"No I didn't... well... I mean" the statement that stood to be my defense was in shambles.

"Do you two like each other?" Jill asked as we approached the elevator. I pondered on the question, my eyes on the cool metallic doors of the elevator.

"Leon and myself?" I asked the moment we were inside, Jill selecting the floor we aimed for in order to retrieve our meal. She relaxed against the walls of the elevator once the door closed and we were moving.

"No Claire I was referring to the other man that shares your company prior to our visit, of course I mean Leon" Jill retorted and I leaned against the cold wall. I took a deep breath, I really do hope Jill's question which was issued previously was a rhetorical one.

"Leon and I are really good friends Jill'' I stated and Jill turned to look at me. If I didn't know better the older woman was trying to read my expression.

"Oh no honey, Chris and I tried that line until we had our moment. Chris does pack a rather-"

"Not another word" I warned while Jill chuckled.

"I am serious, friends don't look at each other the way you two do" she stated firmly and I toyed with my ponytail for mere seconds.

"I assure you, we are friends" was a lie I was trying to tell myself because after the sex and dirty moments I had never been so confused. It was evident that we had sexual chemistry but I believe that was as far as it should go.

I liked Leon as my friend and really could not bear the thought of losing him.

There was a sound as the elevator stopped, the elevator doors opened to reveal an occupied pantry. My eyes moved over various foods, my stomach growling its request to be filled. My lingered eyes on the individuals that were serving their own meals in the distance.

Curse Jill for volunteering me to do this!

"I only met Leon virtually twice prior to yesterday but Chris and I always admired his qualities" Jill informed me and I issued an awkward smile.

With the huge pause that existed I once believed we were finished with this conversation.

"He is quite admirable" I added in the hopes that this conversation would somehow die.

"The evening we were supposed to be introduced was the day Leon confessed his need to make things right" Jill informed me and my throat was slightly parched.

"So you and Chris already knew we weren't on good terms prior to that conversation?" I was curious, Jill's eyes roaming my face.

"Of course Chris knew, he often spoke to me about it. I think your brother saw you two as a pair far before anyone else did" She stated and I bared my teeth. That's right Christopher, toss your little sister's business out there.

"What?" I asked as I collected two dishes. Jill followed my action, my eyes raking the meal in sight.

"Did he not tell you?" Jill seemed stunned.

"No, my brother never asked about the argument we had" I stared at the plates in my hand. Was all that Jill spilled to me a lie?

"Well he and Leon spoke of you often, he kept tabs on you" she stated and it was as though something moved in my chest.

Leon never held feelings beyond friendship. I believe I was scared to believe the words, my eyes burning the more I stared at our meal options.

"Leon is the only guy my brother ever approved of" I told Jill truthfully as I took in the smell of food as discreetly as I possibly could.

"That is the reason I want you to be honest with me, is it raw lust or do you actually feel something because I see the way Leon looks at you." She said that with so much ease. I was struggling to breath because I was beginning to rethink what I say this entire thing to be.

The sex was phenomenal but I don't think it was ever about engaging in sexual relationships. I held Leon to a particular esteem because I would trust him with things beyond my body.

"Leon is in love with someone else" I whispered as I began picking among the food available. When I started eating while doing so a few people eyed me, the closest eyes being that of my sister in law.

"What? You know the ill chance we often have. I may not get to fill my stomach before you know what happens" I stated and Jill rolled her eyes. I believe Jill shrugged and I could not help my giggle when she joined me.

"You are going to make the best Aunt" Jill chuckled and I turned to look at Jill before my eyes moved to her stomach. She confirmed with a firm nod and if I actually looked closely I would have realized this earlier. My smile faded into horror immediately.

"Shit, we did not use protection" I whispered and Jill placed a hand on my shoulder.

"Give it two weeks honey, now let us continue our pep talk shall we?" She suggested and I took a deep breath. I did hope she was right and in two weeks I was not joining her in the land of pregnancy.