fight for freedom

chapter 1

All I have lived, behind the chain of life, the chain of oppression, the chain of freedom, everyone control my every movement, especially my parents, they used me to pay of their debt, enslave me, and beat me for every little mistakes...

I had only one brother, who they treat well, and for some reason he was close to my parents, few days after, I heard  my parents planning to celebrate his birthday, which they never did for me, I was an outcast to outsiders and to my family too.. few days after i was walking alone, when i saw the tv playing near by, almost everyone was going to watch it, I wasn't busy at home, so I went to look at what was playing, it was an old show, called kill or be killed, it was a show of survival, everyone might be watching for fun, but i learn something better, you can kill thr people that hate you before they kill you, the world is where the weak die, the world is a place for the strong...

I thought the reason they didn't like me was because I'm weak, come to think of it, dad always said he will kill me if i didn't do my work right, I bet dad will love me if I'm like one of the characters in that show...

2 days before the birthday

Xian Jin said to his Mom softly "Mom, when will I be celebrating my birthday"? Mom: "Why would a filthy beast like you be celebrating his birthday"?
Instead she called me a filthy beast, I guess that's what they also called the characters in the show, filthy dogs, filthy anime, cause of their animal instinct, maybe my parents want me to turn out like that, that's why they are acting this way, I think I know a way to make them be proud of me....

Birthday:
Xian Jin: Hey little brother, how are you feeling?
Brother: xia...n, xi..an brother...

You see it's not my fault brother, but it's fine, your just going to heaven, and look at us from above..
I walked right to my dad, and ask him for the knife for the cake, my dad lend me the knife, and ask me to keep it on the dinner.. but I have my special plan, I went to my brother room, ask him to give me his finger, I tied his mouth, exactly the way I saw it on the tv, I cut off all his finger, and start stabbing him, I stab him more than I could count, when I was done, I walked to dad, and told him I have a surprise for him, he saw the blood and quickly slap me, and ask me I shouldn't play with knife to injure my self, I told him..

"No dad this blood is not mine, it's juniors blood"!!
Dad: "what? What do you mean?"

Dad was surprised, he went silent, for a while, "dad are you proud of me now? Did I make you happy now?  I did this for you! You and mom, I did it for the both of you, I felt Happy, cause I thought I made them proud, but my dad called Mom and show Mom what I did, my mom took a Cutlass and use it to beat me almost to death, my dad throw me out of the house, I smiled at them, simply saying "yes mom thats it, hit me more, your showing your love right? That's it mom, hit me more, kill me, kill me".   Dad: let him go, if we kill him too, our punishment will be double, it's better to abandon him...

Next day, I saw the cops, came to pick my parents, they were both arrested, I was just 11 years old, they took me to an orphanage home for me to stay, they thought I was traumatized, they thought I was broken...

Xian Jin thought:
My parents never deserve my love, that's the reason they were like that! They knew I was better than them, they weren't even able to end my life, they are weak, weak people doesn't deserve a place in this world, I will kill anyone who is as weak as my family, they deserve nothing more, but death.....

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