My home away from home.

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Leah finally came back, I finally get to go back. She picks me up and I almost ran to the car, I assumed Holly told Leah. I hadn't really ate much in the last 2 days or even done homework. I think people noticed but didn't say anything, especially the girls at training as Katie started beating me at the races and I even said I was too tired to compete against her, I knew alessia definitely knew, she always knew when something was up with me.

We get to Leah's and I run straight to my room and get into bed. Leah walks in "you good?" She asks me. "Mhm" I say and nod my head. She leaves and I focus on my phone, I scroll on instagram. I see my sister posted and I smiled as I saw her face again, I phone her. "Hey Lucy" I say as she answers. "Oh hi, sorry I didn't expect a call" she says. "Oh sorry" I say
"I miss you" I say. " I miss you too but erm. Mam said I shouldn't talk to you" she says. "Why?" I ask
"Why do you think? Remember I'm proud of you" she says and the call ends.

I huff and stay in the bed, I turn the tv on and watch high school musical, look I know it's meant for seven year old kids who were in love with Zac Efron. But for me, it brought back memories from my childhood. Some sort of nostalgia and ecstasy.

The movie finishes and I fall asleep. I wake up to a car door banging downstairs. I get out of bed and go downstairs I see Beth, Viv, Katie and Caitlin walk inside. They all smile at me and I know I didn't respond with a facial expressions it was like I forgot how to smile. I stare at them blankly. Leah walks in and looks at me weirdly, I knew exactly what she thought. "Why arent you at school?" She asks me. "I don't feel too good" I tell her. "You were meant to be there 2 hours ago" Leah says. "I'm sorry Leah, I just, I feel like I'm gonna throw up or something" I say
"Okay" she says. "Try and go back to sleep and have some sips of water" she says
"Okay" I say. I walk up to my room. Of course I felt fine I just slept in. But I also couldn't deal with the pain of seeing Ben today would do to me.
I get into my bed and put the second high school musical on.

Alessia walks upstairs. "When did you get here?" I ask her. "About 30 mins ago" she replies. "Talk to me" she then says and gets next to me in bed, "I'm okay lessi just feeling ill" I say
"Bullshit" she answers immediately
"I can tell when somethings on your mind, and right now something is, so what's up?" She asks
"Just leave okay, I can't be arsed" I say
"So you aren't ill and you should technically be in school and Leah completely believes you. Do you want me to tell her?" She says
"Don't blackmail me alessia" I say
"Talk to me then, like how you did when you were at United" she says
I stay silent. "My parents aren't contacting me and telling my sister not to contact me" I say
"Okay, what else?" She says
"Ben he has a girlfriend and she's awful" I say and feel some tears start to fall down my face.

She hugs me right. "Am I fat?" I ask her crying hysterically
"No why would you think that?" She asks
" because look at me less. I've got so much fat on me" I tell her
"That's normal, you don't want to be all bones do you" she says
"I don't know anymore less. I don't know what I want anymore" I say
"But you can't not go to school just because a boys messed you up" she says
"Come on, get ready and I'll come with you" she says
"Just for this afternoon, two hours" she says
"Okay" i say,

She helps me with everything, sorting out my makeup and hair. It gets to lunch and she drives me to school. I get there and see Hannah talking to a girl. I walk over to them and she says "hi"
"Hi" I say
'Where have you been?" She asks me
"Hospital appointment sorry i forgot to tell you" I say
"It's okay" she says and smiles at me. "This is Bella" she says
"Hey" I say
"Nice to meet you" Bella says to me
I talk with them to the bell goes, I look at my timetable and realise the lesson I have is next to Ben. Shit.

I walk there and see him sat down staring at a piece of paper. I sit down and turn my back to him to talk to the girl beside me to catch up on what we did in the lesson before. I turn back and see a post it note on my book. 'Where have you been' it says. I pick it up and scrunch it and throw it into the bin. I see Cara staring at me. 'Just ignore her' another post it note says. I scrunch it up and throw it in his face. I see as he sighs and slouches down in his chair. I get on with my work and the bell eventually goes. I walk along the corridor and feel someone pull me back, Cara.