The Difference

Chapter 9 Betrayed

I spring awake from my sleep, I jump when I see two eyes staring across the room from me. "Halyn are you awake?" Says a voice that I recognize. "Yeah but..." he cuts me off and says "Okay good because I have to tell you something." "What do you have to tell me that is so important that you couldn't wait till tomorrow?" I ask 

"Well its about tomorrow I have something to tell you...you said that you barely knew me and I realized how right you were." He says calmly but the look on his face is what scares me, he looks cold not a temperature but cold like you don't feel any emotion. 

"Don't worry about what I said earlier remember we told each other everything." I say mellow but him in the same room with me doesn't feel mellow it feels compressed. 

"Actually no..."

"What do you mean, no?" I ask and look him right in the eye. 

"No you don't know me. I am a heartless person,I killed my partner/best friend. He never did me wrong I did the wrong to him.I lied to you about everything, and I befriended your fathers enemy." He answers coldly, and I feel the color drain from my face. 

"You did what?" Say and my voice cracks. He looks up at me and looks me in the eye and gives a sad frown then says 

"I lied to you, I got accepted to be a leader but it was by Mathew I never told you that, I never told you that my real name was Zackery Miller. I never told you that I never meant to love you, I never wanted us to be friends I just needed to know information on the outside. Everything I told you was a lie." I look up at him in disbelief he couldn't he wouldn't. I feel my eyes start to water and I try to hold back the tears but I fail to do so. 

"Why didn't you just tell me  to leave you alone?" I say and my voice sounds shaky. He looks displeased and he should be but yet I still feel myself sorry for him, even when I should feel sorry for myself. I was just a foolish girl who he realized that he could play, I was a easy target. I had no friends, nobody that I loved and then he came along in a matter of weeks. It reminds me of the book romeo and Juliet. Except this time only one of us feels the pain. 

"Its not like that, well it is but its not." He says

"Then what is it like?" I mange to say cooly. 

"I never meant to hurt you!  I was lonely and needed someone just as much as you did then I realized you could be useful to me." I look up at him, I don't believe him anymore. 

"I don't believe you." I say and feel a tear drop fall down my cheek. I don't want to cry, I want to believe him but I can't anymore, and I want to not love him but I do. There are just some things we can't control. 

"Halyn please." He says sadly, I can barley see his face because of the darkness of the room but I do see his blue eyes and I can see the tears starting to form in them. His eyes remind me of the shiny blue book that shines when there is light. The Book. Then I rember the words he just told me my name is Zackery Miller. I look down at my hands away from his eyes. 

"Your Zackery Miller." I whisper letting the words sink  in my head. But how could he have lived that long he is just a little bit older than me. I look back up and then see it now in his eyes. Your eyes never age but you can see something else in his. Betrayal. 

"Haha, I am surprised you didn't figure that out the first day." He says with a laugh. 

"Haha well you should be glad that I didn't or else..." 

"Or else what? You couldn't of done a thing." He cuts me off. I feel all my sadness turning into anger.

"Really I could of reported you and you would be sent off. I still can actually, show them all the books, all the colorful clothes, everything you wouldn't even be able to speak a word you would be sent off so quick." I snap at him. But he doesn't seem to be worried. 

"Oh yes but the question they would ask you is how did you find this place? Your just as guilty as me. You read a quarter of the books, you knew what you were doing, even the first day it didn't come to a surprise that you found a man who in your words tried to kill you by knocking a stack of books down?" He says then adds "I just thought you were smarter." Thats what gets me. I feel my heart drop I feel my cheek grow red with anger. 

"DON'T EVER TELL ME I'M AM NOT SMART!" I yell realizing I shouldn't of then add. "I am smart I just made the stupidest choice I should of turned you in that first day! I should of questioned you more and then I should of realized who you were, a lonely jerk who kills people because he was the one to do them wrong! Someone who would turn on their friend to save their butt. Get out of my dam house right now because I am sick of you and your lies!" He looks surprised that I said that and then gets up and climbs through the window and closes it. I lay back down in bed, I feel empty I feel horrible. I hear someone running down the hall and I sit up and my door opens and the lights turn on. 

"Halyn did you yell?" My Mom says and her voice sounds worried and I turn around so she can't see my face with tears running down it. 

"No, I think it was the neighbors I herd it too." I say trying to make my voice sound as normal as possible, haha I finally want something to be normal for once. 

"Oh okay well goodnight." She says and turns off my room light and closes the door. I lay back down and thats when I start to break down and cry. The moon must feel so lonely in the sky, it is the only different one in a whole sky full of stars. Or maybe it likes being different. I know I don't sometimes. Maybe our laws are good. So we can't get hurt. But I am already hurt and we still have the same laws. All I feel is empty, broken, and betrayed.