When Natalie went home that night she went straight to bed and started balling her eyes out. All she wanted to do right now is to cry forever. She checked her phone, the bright light shined at her face. She saw 99+ messages, and 13 missed calls from Mikolaj. Natalie unlocked her phone straight away. She went on messages and scrolled through all the ones that Miko sent her. They were all something like "I haven't seen you all day", "Are you feeling okay?", "Did something happen?". Natalie only replayed "I'm okay." and turned her phone off. She looked up at her ceiling and started thinking. Thinking about stuff she shouldn't think about. As she was staring of into space, her dad opened the door aggressively almost making the whole room shake, Natalie got a fright and jumped out of her bed looking at her dad, shaking in fear with tears still streaming down her cheek. Her dad was clearly drunk, he was holding a glass beer bottle and he could barely stand. "You are a mistake and, and a disgrace to this world" Her dad started yelling. He walked towards Natalie and threw the beer bottle at her. Natalie with little time to react got hit. She fell off her bed screaming in pain her whole head was bleeding, there was blood dripping down, onto the white carpet. "SHUT UP." her dad yelled at her annoyed. He lifted his fist aiming at Natalie who just barely sat up, got punched straight in the face knocking her down to the floor again. Natalie tried so hard not to scream because she knew it would only make it worse. Her dad walked out the room satisfied with what he had done. Natalie rushed straight to the bathroom and locked the door. She stared crying silently and looked herself in the mirror. Her head was covered in blood and she had a big bruise right under her eye. she looked around the whole bathroom and she stopped to look at the sharp razor that was sitting on the counter right in front of her, she grabbed the sharp blade and looked at it for a while, She started thinking about it and she but the blade near her arm. She hesitated but she slid it across causing a big scratch, she smiled while in tears, her eyes puffy and red while doing it again. The next second she dropped the razor and looked at her arms. They were all bloody, covered in big and small scars. She sat down rubbing her back against the wall and just sat there. She started laughing and crying at the same time, her vision started going blurry and soon enough she passed out from loosing a lot of blood.
The next morning she found herself still in the bathroom. She felt tired and weak, she didn't know what time it was. She was hurting all over her body. She looked her her arms and legs. They were both covered in scars and dry blood. She finally remembered what happened last night. She got up and almost fell again. "I need to clean myself, I'm covered in blood.." She mumbled to herself. She got up and check the shelf under the sink. there were bandages and and cotton pads. She grabbed the cotton pads and soaked them with water, she wiped her forehead, it stung but she forced herself to continue. after she wiped all the blood off her forehead, arms and legs she put bandage's on the scars. All her legs and arms where covered in bandages. "I can't go anywhere like this.." She whispered to herself again. She walked over to her bedroom almost tripping on every step. She walked over to her closet and took out a black hoodie and some jeans. It was the middle of summer but its what she had to do. Natalie was so focused on herself she never checked the time. she ran over to her bed and picked up her phone. it was dead. "Shit!.." She threw her phone on the bed and walked over to the kitchen. She walked passed the living room and seen her dad laying on the couch snoring. She ignored him and checked the time on the clock in the kitchen. 12:34pm. It was about half way through the school day. Natalie made her way back into her room. She sat on her bed thinking about last night. She quickly brushed of her thought's and turned on her phone. Just as she thought Mikolaj messaged her millions of time. She just texted him saying "sorry I'm not feeling well so I'll probably wont go in for the whole week." Natalie turned off her phone and just laid down in her bed. She put on her headphones and turned on Melanie Martinez. She closed her eyes and just hoped she would never wake up again..
