I love Garrett with every fiber of my being. He means everything to me, and I will do anything to keep him safe and happy. But things have been getting difficult lately. He's been showing interest in other people, and it's driving me crazy. I can't stand the thought I could lose him, so I've done things that I never thought I would. I've planned to kill anyone who even looks in his direction, and I'll keep doing it if it means keeping Garrett all to myself.
At first, I thought doing this would make things easier, that Garrett would understand how much I love him and how far I'm willing to go for him. But instead, it's only driven us apart. He's started to lose attraction for me, and I can sense it in the way he avoids me. I know I need to stop, but I can't seem to stop myself.
I try to justify my behavior, telling myself that Garrett needs me, that he would be lost without me. But deep down, I know that's not true. He's a strong, independent man who can take care of himself. I know that he doesn't need me the way I need him, and it's killing me.
I still love Garrett the same way I always have, but I fear that the path I've chosen has driven us too far apart. I don't know if I can go back to the way things were before. I don't know if Garrett will ever be able to love me the way I love him again. And I don't know if I can live with the knowledge of what I've done.
I can't stand the thought of losing Garrett to someone else. The thought of him being interested in other people is too painful for me to bear. I've tried everything I can think of to keep him all to myself, but nothing seems to work. I've killed everyone Garrett has ever shown even the slightest bit of interest in, hoping that it would make him realize just how much he means to me.
But now, as I see Garrett starting to lose more attraction for me and pull away, I can't help but feel like I'm losing my grip on him. It's like I'm a predator who has hunted down his prey, but he's slipping out of my grasp. I know that Garrett still loves me, but I'm starting to realize that my actions have driven a wedge between us. I'm afraid that if I don't change soon, I'll lose him forever.
I want to be with Garrett more than anything in this world. I want to care for him, to protect him, to love him. But I'm starting to realize that my extreme measures to keep him all to myself have only served to push him away. I need to find a way to be with him in a way that's healthy and sustainable for both of us.
I know that I love Garrett with all my heart, and I know that he loves me, too. But I also know that we can't continue like this. I need to find a way to show Garrett that I'm not just a jealous protector, but also a loving partner. I need to find a way to balance my need to keep Garrett all to myself with his need for his own life and interests.
It's going to be hard, but I'm willing to do what it takes to keep Garrett in my life. I need him, and he needs me. And I know that we can find a way to be together that works for both of us.
