LHS|| Over Me

Ep 3

The last two weeks of school I had no idea what was going on, since we were seniors we had already taken our finals so these days were pointless therefore I didn't show up. There was no way that I would be able to see Heeseung's face and not lose it on him. That man has the audacity to do that to me and not text me once. Like I've never existed to him. I can say 100% that I am still not over him, I've been laying in my bed unmotivated and energyless crying these entire two weeks. But today is my graduation. So I have to go. And I have to see him. My parents came back from their business trip about a week ago. They are aware of what happened between me and Heeseung. They were livid, that we were together for so long, then he just goes and cheats like it's nothing. But I told them if we see him at graduation not to talk to him. I am going to try my best to stay together without completely dying in front of all my peers. Two days ago Jungwon had dropped off my cap and gown at my house. I put on a short white fancy dress and put on my blue graduation gown. With that I put on my cap, which I had decorated all business like, because my future profession I want to go forward in is business. I did some light makeup, grabbed my phone and walked down the stairs. My parents and Sunghoon were taking pictures of me in my graduation outfit. "Sweetheart, I am so proud of you! I know these two weeks have been extremely hard for you but you've pulled through. No more high school! I am going to be so sad when you leave for college." I fake smiled. Did she really have to bring up Heeseung? She knows I am going to have to see him there, and that's enough I really can't talk about him anymore. He still gets me way too emotional. I grabbed my cream heel shoes and we walked outside to take pictures. I tried to make my smile look as genuine as possible but I don't think it was that believable. After the pictures my dad drove us all to my school. We arrived at the school and made our way to the huge auditorium. My parents and Sunghoon walked away from me to try to find seats. Sunghoon gave me a thumbs up. I then found Jungwon. "Hey bestie can you believe we are graduating right now! We will no longer be high schoolers! This is insane!" Jungwon said jumping up and down in front of me. "Its so exciting." i said in a half sarcastic tone. Jungwon knows I am still not over Heeseung, so he understands. He gave me a huge hug which I gave back to him. Then the ceremony began, so me and Jungwon found the seats with our names on them. But that's when I remembered we had said who we wanted to sit next to in advance. Fuck. I looked at the seat next to me and saw the name in bold letters. The ones I didn't want to see. Lee Heeseung. No no no I can't sit next to him. I will surely start bawling. I tapped Jungwon's shoulder. "Jungwon, can we switch seats?" He looked at me with a weird expression. "Why?" I pointed to the seat name next to mine. His eyes widened. "Yes of course we can switch." we switched our names on the seats so Jungwon sat in the middle of us. "Thank you." I half smiled at him. It's been hard to smile recently. I then saw him coming. I decided to not take one glance at him, to keep myself at ease. But that was short lived. I looked at him a bunch. I missed seeing that handsome face everyday, I missed hearing him tell me he loved me. I missed him so much. I felt a single tear start to run but I quickly wiped it off. The principal began to talk. "I would like to welcome everyone to the graduation ceremony for the class of 2018. These students have gone through so much this year. I hope all the hardships that you faced throughout your high school years just helps you reach your success and the path you would like to take as adults. I am so glad I got to meet your amazing class and see you grow throughout the years. I am very proud of all of you and I have so much faith in every single one of you! Do great things beyond high school! Now it is time to announce the class of 2018 to get their diploma." We all stood up and they began. Jungwon tapped me. "I have to go first in the list before you, we have to swap spots." I nodded and let him go in front of me but did not look behind me. I felt his eyes staring at the back of my head. "Yang Jungwon" I watched Jungwon walk up onto the stage, take the diploma and shake the hand of the principal, then take a picture in the middle of the stage. "Park Sooha" I took a deep breath and walked onto the stage. I took the diploma from the principal and gave her a handshake. I walked in the middle of the stage and smiled the best I could. I saw my parents and Sunghoon clapping and video taping me. I then went off the stage and me and Jungwon swapped seats again. "Lee Heeseung." I didn't even glance once, I didn't want to look at that beautiful smile. The smile of the man that took the smile off my face. "Now for the speech of your Valedictorian and class President Park Jongseong" everyone clapped as Jay went up onto the stage. He prepared his speech on the podium and began to speak. "Dear my friends and peers that are sitting here with me today, it has been the greatest pleasure to meet and interact with all you lovely people. I honestly believe without the people I have met, I wouldn't be the Park Jongseong that you all know and see right now, so I am grateful to have known and met you all. and I hope in all our futures we look back on the things we did in high school and the people we were with and think, because of that, I am who I am today. I wish everyone in this building luck for their future. I hope we meet again sometime whether it be in this life or another. We've officially done it class of 2018, now go out in the world and be the best version of yourself you can be. Thank you!" the crowd began to clap. Jay always seems to deliver when it comes to speeches. He was naturally good at it. The principal went back to the podium. "Now farewell to the class of 2018!" We all threw our caps in the air to celebrate. After collecting them I walked to find my parents and Sunghoon with Jungwon. Once I found it, I ran to Sunghoon and gave him a huge hug. "You finally did it! I am so proud of you!" "thank you Hoonie." "I am very proud of you my dear! Let's get a picture of you guys!" First, me and Sunghoon took a picture together. Then me and Jungwon took a photo together. "Jungwon, can you take a picture of all of us?" "of course appa!" My dad gave Jungwon his phone and we took pictures. "Thank you Jungwon dear." my mom said to him. "Of course eomma!" then I saw Mr. and Mrs. Yang and Jungwon's sister walking towards us. I gave them a smile and went to hug them. "Hi eomma and appa! How have you guys been?" "we've been well sweetheart how are you? Oh! And where is Heeseung?" my smile dropped. Sunghoon put his hands on my shoulders. "we broke up." Mrs. Yang looked at me shocked. "sweetheart i am so sorry! you two were inseparable. do you guys wanna take a family photo together?" my mom nodded. "We would love to!" Mrs. Yang went to find someone to take the picture, she came across a girl. " excuse me miss, can you take a picture for us?" "of course!" the girl stepped closer to us she seemed like she looked familiar but the camera was covering her face. thats when I saw Jennie was the one taking the picture. my face dropped. she smirked at me. "hello! Sooha happy graduation! oh Heeseung come here! i would like you to meet my boyfriend! oh wait i think you already know him!" she did not. Heeseung walks up next to her and puts his arm around her waist. "hey Sooha, are you doing well?" i scoffed "your fucking joking!" the tears started to fall and they wouldn't stop. "ok lets go." Sunghoon said grabbing my arm, signaling Jungwon to grab my other arm. but when I am pissed off, i am strong. i pulled myself out of their grip and walked up to him. "you fucking son of a bitch! you date me for three fucking years and put that all down the drain for her?! Do you know the pain and suffering you caused me?! and you dont give a fuck about me, my feelings, all the love i gave you?! i gave you everything then you act like i dont fucking exist?! How could you do this to me?! then you walk up to me with your new girlfriend and ask me how i am doing?! I FUCKING HATE YOU!! GO FUCK YOURSELF" that was when i finally broke i was a sobbing mess. people were looking at me because of my screaming but at that point i didnt give a fuck. I wanted to tear off his face. He just stood there not saying anything with his stupid arm around that bitch. At this point I fell to the ground. "You said you loved me." I said between sobs. " I'm sorry but I fell out of love with you. Have a good day. happy graduation." Heeseung then just walked away with Jennie. I was a wreck on the floor. How could he? Sunghoon and my dad put my arms around their necks and brought my sobbing self to the car. I couldn't walk, I couldn't talk. I was so broken. He officially had broken me. My family said goodbye to Jungwon's family and everyone went in the car. My mom and Sunghoon were trying to comfort me but I was so done I couldn't stop crying. We got home and I ran into my room and slammed the door, crying my heart out on my bed. This was supposed to be the happiest, most important day of my life, and I am anything but happy. I laid there in my white dress and my graduation gown, mascara running all over my face. At that point I got so tired of crying I fell asleep. I heard the door open and I felt someone hugging me. I knew it was Sunghoon because of the masculine body, but my mind told me it was Heeseung, so I felt more tears flowing down my face. "Sunghoon, I miss him so much. I love him so much, and I hate him so much." He squeezed my shoulders. "I know you do. i don't know if you saw, but i cried when i heard you screaming about how wronged you feel. It really broke my heart hearing you scream like that. I am really sorry you are going through this, I feel terrible and I don't know how I can help you. just let me know if there is anything i could do for you." I turned around and looked at him. I noticed tears coming to his eyes when he saw my running mascara. I hugged him really tight. " I can't do this. I really can't. I have no more energy left." I just laid there energyless in his arms because the amount of crying I did used up all my energy. My parents walked into my room. They helped me take off my gown and gave me some fresh pajamas and gave me a hug with Sunghoon. "sweetheart i am so sorry you are going through this, it made me so sad to hear you scream at him. and the worst part is I know you still love him alot. is there anything you want us to do to help you feel any better?" my mom said, wiping the tears and mascara off my face with her thumbs. "I just want to go to bed. can you leave me be." they all nodded and walked out. Sunghoon kissed me on the head and walked out. I went into my bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like a maniac. Because of my mascara running I looked like a zombie. I felt like a zombie, so lifeless. I washed my face and changed into the pajamas my mom brought me. Then I just went to bed. the whole rest of the day.