But I Still Love You

Chapter 1

"Good grief, I was about to die out of hunger," Aera groaned as they sat down at the cafe, having their dinner. Ari flipped through the menu as Jia Xuan and Mi-suk were sleeping while Mi-young was playing some online games.

"Yah, will the two of you stop sleeping? And you, can you take your eyes off the phone?" Ari asked.

"No never," Mi-young said, "I am already Challenger. I need to rank up." Jia Xuan looked at the girl who was playing the game that she used to play.

"You can try to rank up but you will never beat the queen," Aera said as she looks at Jia Xuan.

"Yah, I already retire from that game. I am no longer the queen. Tong Yao is then the queen," Jia Xuan honestly said, "I want a creamy pasta."

"Tong Yao unnie is not bad, but like you are sort of better than her. I've seen video stats of you and Tong Yao unnie, you actually rank higher than her. Furthermore, she can only deal with the Top lane, you on the other hand take on the role as Mid and Jungler," Mi-young said.

"Mi-young is right," Mi-suk said, finally waking up from her sleep. Mi-young gave a proud smile at Mi-suk.

"Shut up," Jia Xuan said, as she continued to look at Mi-young play, "You shouldn't attack this quick. You are only at level 5, you can't take on 1v3. Camp first." Mi-young looked at her in confusion till she got what she actually meant. She quickly went to follow Jia Xuan's instructions and somehow didn't actually die.

"Of course since it is the Goddess of Esports, of course she will help me not to die," Mi-young said as she looked at Jia Xuan, "You are my best friend."

"In short, you just want me to help you and rank you up. Aera, is there any chance of me being able to switch dorms with you? I don't want to deal with this girl's problems anymore," Jia Xuan said.

"Not my problem," Aera said, "I want to share a dorm with Ari unnie, not the crazy unnies." Jia Xuan and Mi-young glared at Aera when they heard the word crazy.

"Ok, ok, ok. Enough of talking. I would like to order the food already," Ari said before walking to the counter, ordering the food for them. Jia Xuan was scrolling through her phone when a notification came up. She clicked onto it.

"Another day, another life. #whereareyou." The post read. Jia Xuan's smile dropped as she sees his post. Him staring out at the beach, looking lonely.

"Fuck," Jia Xuan muttered as she stares at the post.

"Is that Jiao Haung oppa?" Mi-young asked. Jia Xuan quickly got out of the page that she was at and looking at Mi-young.

"No. I am not. You are looking at it wrongly," Jia Xuan said, as she looked outside the window.

"Bang Appa says that we need to go back to the company. He got something to tell us," Ari said as she walks back to their table.

<><><TIME SKIPS><><>

"We are giving you all a half a year break before you have a comeback later in the next half of the year. We are giving you guys a break because we are planning of giving you girls a world tour after that next comeback so we hope that you guys will have a good relaxation time first before going back," Bang PD said.

"Really?!" The girls screamed as they heard the break.

"Yes, you guys can go wherever you want to," Bang PD said. Then he dismisses them.

"I am going back to Thailand," Ari said as she went to the flight app, booking for a flight.

"Ji-hae unnie, are you going back to China?" Aera asked. Jia Xuan shrugged.

"Me and Cheng Ge are getting married one week later. Will you come back? Please tell me," Tong Yao texted her. Jia Xuan hesitated. She really wanted to go to her best friend's wedding but at the same time, she felt guilty in leaving them.

"Tong Yao unnie is having a wedding? You should go," Mi-young said.

"Should I?" Jia Xuan sighed.

"Stay there for 6 months. Maybe then, you will be able to date Jiao Huang oppa again," Mi-suk said. She looked at the message again.

"Do you think he will forgive me?" Jia Xuan sighed.

"He will, if you try," Ari said as she held onto Jia Xuan's arm. Jia Xuan looked at the phone and pressed the button to buy the ticket. She's going back home. She is going to get him back.

<><><TIME SKIPS TO A DAY BEFORE TONG YAO'S WEDDING><><>

"Hey, make sure you start to eat. You are getting thinner and thinner every single day," Ari said as she pat Jia Xuan's shoulder. Jia Xuan playfully scoffs as she walks away from them.

"Survive. I hope to be able to have a brother-in-law soon," Mi-young said. Jia Xuan showed an 'ok' hand sign before disappearing.

Every step she walked in, her heart beats faster. She could curse loads of time during that period of time. Walking into the plane and taking her seat, she is experiencing it again. Is this Deja vu? The last time she was at the plane, closing her eyes, she was crying. Now, she is at the same exact plane, going back.

It's fine, it's fine. Nothing can go wrong. She thought. Jia Xuan took a deep breathe in as she looked outside. As the plane took off, she closed her eyes. All she hope was that she will be able to get him back. Maybe get him back as just a friend. Nothing more than that. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.

In the world is there even a maybe? Probably and probably not. Maybe she will find out soon. She will find out whether it is true. All those maybe's, will it actually be true?