Damn My Heart

Chapter 9

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Becky's P.O.V.

I wake up to the sound of my alarm clock. The time showed 9 pm, God I slept late again. Well it was only fair since I had a lot to do yesterday. Not to mention the fact that sleeping beside Freen is not as easy as it sounds. Just her presence ignites a fire in me and to spend a whole night in the same room WITHOUT touching her felt next to impossible.

I got up and went to the bathroom where I had just finished up doing my business when I first noticed my jacket lying on the floor. I was pretty sure that was not where it was left last night by me. I had hung it on the hook so I went up and checked only to find my knife missing. My instinct kicked in as I went to the room when I noticed that knife sitting on the bedside. Freen's bedside.

*Shit.*

No note, nothing. Even though I was scared of the consequences, I gathered all the courage in me and went to the living room. And of course, there she was, sipping her coffee. When she heard the door click behind me her eyes darted up and her gaze burned right through me. I don't know what she thinks of me right now. But a small part of me couldn't help but feel a little hope despite knowing that this can only go one way, and that way wasn't looking so good with the way she was staring at me. 

"We should talk." 3 words. Those three words made me sweat harder than any boxing session.

I sat down opposite her, just to be careful.

"Explain to me why you killed my father 6 years ago." 

*What?* I thought as this was the last question I was expecting from her. I had tried for a long time to explain to her but she always either lashed at me or walked out. So this was unexpected but I obligued to her request because no matter how cold and strong I tried to appear, I had always wanted to tell her this. I had always just hoped and hoped for that one chance and here it was. Of after a couple of beats, I started,

"Well do you remember the day we had gone out to the beach to celebrate our High School Graduation........

(Flashback- 6 Years Ago)

"This had been the best day of my life theerak." I said to the love of my life as we stood outside my house. It was about to be dark and we had spent the better part of the day on the beach. Freen had surprised me with the little trip and I was over the moon as it was my favorite place to be.  We were leaning against her car as she said,

"Me too babe. I love your smile and I would do everything to keep that smile on your face forever." 

"Wow...you sure are cheezy bb." I giggled and leaned in to capture her lips. We kissed a lot.

All day, Every day, Everywhere. After a long sweet kiss I pulled back as it was time to go home. We'd decided to celebrate the night with our respective families. 

"See you tomorrow?" she asked with a smile.

"Yeah...see you tomorrow as I leaned one more time to give her a peck on the lips and went inside my house.

Upon entering I realised how weirdly eerie it felt. The lights were off unusually. My mom was out of town and had still an hour before she'd come back  but my sister Mon, 2 years younger than me was at home and she didn't like the dark. So this was what triggered my instinct as I slowly went upstairs. Upon reaching I heard some noises from her room. Whimpers I think....I crossed the hall and found the door unlocked and slightly open, a little light peeking from inside and.........cries. I peeked in and my face went white at the sight. My feet paralyzed at it. Somehow I managed to breathe and opened the door.

Freen's father on top of my naked sister. Tears dripping down her eyes and blood oozing from the cut on her lips.

The next thing I knew, something hard hit my head as I seeped into darkness.

...................

I opened my eyes as something wet splashed on my face. My sister, now dressed up sprinkling water over me. I saw the tears, and the cut, and I remembered. Mon. Freen's dad. I got up quickly and turned to her,

"Baby....wh--ho--" I wanted to ask a million questions but nothing came out of my mouth. As if on cue she spoke,

"He- he came t-to see if P'Freen was here... and I said no and he insisted th-that he come inside. I went to bring him w-water but found him behind me..touching me...h-he..I th-think he knocked me unconscious before t-taking me to the room....." she cried.

I scooted closer to her and wrapped my arms around her as she collapsed into sobs. That bastard of a man! I could practically feel my blood boiling and the images of his dead body in hundred different ways crossing my mind. He messed up big time.

And I am going to make sure I get to him before Law does.

(End of Flashback)

"............and I took her to the hospital the next morning to get that "Rape Kit" test for legal procedure. But she was never the same ...... she was broken no matter how hard we tried. And I swear to god, I saw how hard SHE was trying and it broke my heart. Then the night I- Killed your dad, I had seen my baby sister's body hanging from the ceiling fan. She had killed herself and left me with a note. That was the last straw, and our family dinner gave me the perfect opportunity. I'm sorry for all that you had to go through Freen, I really am but I don't feel an ounce of regret over what I did that day...."

I ended my confession waiting for Freen to say something. All these years, I had kept this to myself, no one knows except for one person who aided me in all the cover up. As soon as the confession was over, it felt like I could finally breathe again. As much as I wanted this out, I wanted this to be out to FREEN. I knew I could lose her but I had desperately hoped she would understand and it was amazing how that little string of hope was still there, after years of hatred.

Freen's P.O.V.

Becky's confession was not what I had expected. There had been a number of theories I had built up over past 9 hours when she had been asleep but this was not one of them. Of course, it made sense, why nobody had seen Mon for such a long time. She was such a sweet little kind and to think that my father....My father who loved me like nothing in the world was precious would do that.....And Becky....how had she endured all of that, her sister. She loved her sister more than anything in the world, I had seen it in her eyes. My heart broke. Now I looked at her waiting patiently for my response. There was only one thing left to do. 

The girl who had committed murder for her sister at the expense of losing her love would never ever hurt someone intentionally. I knew it.

I crossed my way to her and crashed my lips to hers. The moment they made contact I felt the electric shock run through my veins. The charge of it all. It took a while for her to response but when she did, it was the most amazing feeling in the world. As if this was what my soul had been waiting for. Our tongues fought for dominance as her hand touched my whole body all at once. The kiss felt like a promise, a bond, a revival of something that was lost and maybe...maybe a possibility of forever.

When we broke apart, I could see the relief in her eyes. 

"I- I'm sorry.... I didn't know...." I spoke breathlessly.

"Of- of course you didn't baby. It's not your fault...." she said her voice raw with emotions that were deep buried once.

We leaned our heads against each other, our hands wrapped around each other's bodies holding on like an anchor making up for all the lost time.

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