Torn Into Pieces

Chapter 17

This chapter contains talk of past SA of a kid!!!

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We were still in the bed as Alexander stroked my hair gently. I forced him to change the topic so I didn't have to think anymore about what he said happen.

I eventually started to fall asleep to the sound of his voice as my head rested on his chest.

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Nightmare
TW: SA

I was in my bedroom watching some youtube video's on my tablet that my mom got me for my 13th birthday. I jumped lightly as my stepdad stormed in. I could tell he was drunk from the way he was stumbling.

I never liked him drunk. He'd always touch me in places I didn't like when he got drunk.

He stormed over to me and snatched the tablet out of my hands and threw it on the floor, "Such a ungrateful brat," he growled at me as he pushed me onto my back on the bed. He quickly turned me over on my stomach as his hands roamed over my body.

"R-Robert, s-stop," I cried out to him, but I was only met with him shoving my head down into the bed roughly.

"Shut the fuck up and stay quiet," he growled again as his hands ripped my pants off my body.

I whimpered into the bed as I heard him unbuckling his belt buckle. I struggled against him but he was too strong.

I felt something press against me down there and I grew scared and confused. Then it felt like I was being torn in half, cause something big was entering me from behind. I struggled and kicked as I screamed painfully into the bed.

"Shut the fuck up boy," he growled into me ear as I felt him snap his hips into me as he groaned. "So fucking tight around me."

I cried into the bed as he kept on getting rougher and rougher.

I felt him lift my small body up and against his chest. He wrapped a hand around my throat and chuckled as he started to kiss my neck roughly.

I let out a painful scream but he covered my mouth quickly.

And just like that, I heard someone scream my name before everything went black.

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End of Nightmare

I felt hands shaking me roughly and I jolted awake. I blinked and I realized tears were streaming down my face, my throat felt sore for some reason. I looked over at the hands shaking me and saw a worried Alexander.

I moved back quickly as I brought my knees to my chest, as I buried my face into my knees and cried into them. I heard a soft voice call out my name, "Ace, baby, can you hear me?" Alexander asked gently. I nodded my head into my knees. "Can I touch you baby?" He asked again.

I looked up at him and stared at him for a second. I saw how gentle his eyes were but saw the worry in them. I nodded after a few seconds.

I felt the bed move slightly and I was being pulled into a tight hug. I struggled for a second but relaxed after a few seconds. I breathed in Alexander's scent and held onto him tightly. I cried into his chest.

"Shhhh..... Baby," he spoke gently, "I got you baby. Nothing can hurt you baby," he promised as he stroked my hair gently.

After a while, I finally calmed down and I looked up at Alexander, "S-Sorry," I mumbled slightly.

I felt his grip tighten around me, "Don't apologize baby. You didn't do anything wrong."

I nodded slightly. I knew I had to tell him but my doubts kept getting to me.

I eventually decided to just blurt it out, "I was raped when I was 13," I blurted it out.

I felt his grip on me tighten as his body went tense, "What?" He asked. He lifted my head up, "What did you just say?" He asked again.

I sighed as I moved my head back down to his chest and forced his hand back into my hair. He immediately went to massaging my scalp and I sighed in relief.

"After my dad died when I was 4, my mom got married to a guy named Robert when I was 8. He was nice at first but he started to act weird. When I turned 9, he got me some cars that I can play with," I explained quietly. I took a deep breath before continuing, "He told me to come sit in his lap so I did, but his hands they started to roam my body," I let out a shaky breath. "Whenever I tried to move, he said he would take away the cars so I got still. I guess I was too young to understand what he was doing," I rambled the last part.

Alexander kept his grip tight on me as I ran my finger along his bare chest. I guess he took his shirt off after I fell asleep.

"Then after a few weeks, he started to get drunk and would sneak into my room at night. He would force me t-to t-touch him," I heard my voice break slightly as tears streamed down my face again. "If not t-touching h-him, h-he would f-force h-himself into my m-mouth as he t-touched me in places I didn't want him touching me. T-Then on my 13th b-birthday m-my mom got me a tablet. I-I was in my room when h-he stormed in drunk. T-That was the d-day h-he...." I cut myself off as I wiped the tears away and forced myself to continue. "T-The d-day that he r-raped me.... B-Before I b-blacked I-I heard my m-mom s-screaming," I took a sharp intake of air. "The next d-day I-I woke up in a h-hospital. C-Confused m-mostly. I-I didn't know w-what r-rape was at that a-age or even s-sex. Until my mom was crying and e-explaining," I finished finally.

I just cried into his chest as he rubbed my back with his free hand and his other hand still massaging my scalp. His entire body was tense.

"That fucking bastard," he eventually growled.

I chuckled lightly, "I fell into depression soon after around the age 14. I kept to myself all the time," I explained. I rolled up my sleeves revealing the old scars, "I started cutting around the age 15. As I grew older and started to fully understand what rape was, the worse it got. specially whenever my mom kept getting boyfriends after boyfriends. Then she married Gary," I explained.

He kissed the top of my head and I smiled, "I developed a eating disorder. Everytime I ate something, it reminded me of him... in my mouth," I whispered.

"Fuck..." he mumbled.

"The only people that knew about the eating disorder is Adrian. Danny found out about the eating disorder from how many times he watched me not eat at breakfast, lunch, or dinner. And now you," I explained. "I never told my mom about it because she was always around fucking Gary. And for some reason, Gary looked somewhat like Robert to me. So I only told Adrian at the time before Robert forced us to move," I explained to him.

He held onto me tightly, "I'm so sorry baby. That should've never happened to you," he whispered against my ear.

I kissed his chest lightly.

I yawned, "I'm going back to sleep," I mumbled as I moved myself closer to him.

He chuckled as I slowly began falling back to sleep.