Torn Into Pieces

Chapter 18

I woke up to an arm wrapped around me tightly. I smiled as I realized Alexander actually stayed. But then I felt that same emotion I used to feel whenever I was back home. After the nightmare and opening up to Alexander, I could already tell it was going to take a toll on me, but I didn't it would be this bad.

I groaned lightly as I turned around and I pulled the covers over me slightly. I soon heard another groan as it told me Alexander was awake.

I prepared myself for the worst. Him leaving me, like everyone else. I doubt he would want to be together with me after I told him what happened to me. He'd hate me.

But then I remembered how he reacted. So gentle and caring.

My mind pushed that away as it told me, that he lied and he didn't care.

I jumped whenever I felt someone touch my arm, "Sorry babe," the voice replied.

I moved away, "Don't call me that."

It was silent for a moment then he spoke again, "What's wrong Ace?" Alexander asked me.

I grunted, "Just get it over with," I muttered.

"Baby, what are you talking about? Get what over with?" He asked me confused.

"Just go ahead and break up with me already!" I exclaimed.

I felt movement behind me and I felt a arm wrap around me and pulled me up into a sitting position. I kept my gaze down where he wouldn't see the tears brimming my eyes. I felt him lift my chin up gently, "Look at me Ace," he ordered me sternly. I looked up at him. "Where in the hell did you get that fucking idea?" He asked me with a sharp tone in his voice.

"Last night. Why would you want to stay with me? Huh?" I asked as my voice broke. "Why would anyone? I'm broken. No use of being put back together," I spoke harshly.

"Baby, last night would never make me want to leave you. And you are not broken," he spoke gently.

I threw up my wrist and showed the old scars, "That's a lie! Look at my wrist! I can barely even eat without throwing up, because if I do all I remember is him!" I exclaimed as tears streamed down my face.

He grabbed my wrist and caressed them, "That doesn't mean you are broken baby. You just had bad coping mechanisms and still reliving the trauma baby. It's normal. Not normal for someone to do what they did to you, but normal for not knowing how to cope baby," he explained to me gently. "And I'll help you the whole time baby. I'll get you back to eating properly without him in your mind," he promised.

I choked on a sob, "T-Then I'll just be a burden to you," I muttered.

I was suddenly pulled into a tight hug, "You could never be a burden to me baby. Never. I'll help you the entire way babe. I won't leave you," he promised me as he kissed my forehead.

I cried into his neck as he held onto me. He rubbed my back slowly, "Let's get you something to eat baby," he spoke softly.

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I was currently in his office waiting for him to get back with the food. I was on the couch with my knees to my chest and my chin rested on my knees.

I heard the door open and saw Alexander walk back in. He sat the food down and grabbed a fork. He sat beside me and pulled my legs over his lap. He rested the food on top of my knees.

I looked at him and pouted, "Am I a foot stool now?" I teased him.

He chuckled, "Eat."

He picked up food and held it to my mouth. I shook my head as I leaned away.

He sighed and rubbed my thigh gently, "Just eat two bites for me baby," he spoke softly and gently.

I looked at him and eventually opened my mouth. He slowly put the food in my mouth and I chewed on the food. I felt tears brimming the corners of my eyes as I found it hard to shallow. I shook my head quickly.

He noticed my distress, "Shallow baby. One more after this," he encouraged softly.

I forced myself to shallow and to not throw up everywhere.

After I shallowed he lifted the fork again and I repeated the process.

After I shallowed the food, he smiled, "There you go baby. Good job," he praised me.

For the rest of lunch, we sat on the couch and cuddled as he whispered words of encouragement to me.

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Sorry this one is short!! I wanted to get one more out before calling it day!!