Torn Into Pieces

Chapter 21

It has been hours since they've left but I couldn't find it in myself as I felt like his hands were all over my body again. My mind constantly replayed that memory that I do not want.

Alexander has stayed at my side the entire time and hasn't left. I was holding his hand, playing with his fingers as I tried to take my mind off of it, but I couldn't.

I felt Alexander tilt my head up lightly and kissed me softly, "Want to talk about it?" He asked me gently.

I shook my head as I just interlaced our fingers together and held onto his hand tightly. He nodded and I was thankful for it, but something tugged at my heart. He shouldn't have to deal with my problems. I should be able to handle them on my own, I shouldn't bring others into it because I'm scared of that bastard. It wasn't fair to him.

I sighed, "I hate him. I hate them. I hate them all," I muttered out. "W-Why would she agree to bringing him? Why? I thought I was her son. But yet she trusts Gary for what I need. Why? Why did she bring him? Why did she listen to Gary?" I ranted to him. I felt the tears brimming at my eyes, and I wiped at my eyes. "It's like she doesn't care anymore. Does she even still love me Alex?" I heard my voice crack.

I felt his grip tighten around me as he kissed the top of my head, "I'm sure she does. She just..... Fuck it. To be honest baby, I don't know. Hopefully, she'll open her eyes and realize what she did," he spoke gently.

I hid my face into his chest as I cried. I held onto him tightly, just crying. He rubbed my back and kept whispering soothing words into my ear as I cried.

That's how I fell asleep. Crying into his chest.

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The next day, I sat beside Adrian with my head on his shoulder just staring off into the distance. He ruffled my hair every so often. He was mad after I told him about what happened.

Brian sat in front of me as I explained everything, he looked at me with a sad look. Adrian just gave him a look of do not ask questions, and Brian kept quiet.

My eyes moved up when I saw Alexander walk in. I gave him a weak smile and he smiled back at me. I watched as he was talking to another Lieutenant.

I saw Bobby walk over to the table, "What's the sad look about handsome?" He smirked at me.

I couldn't find the energy to say anything back at him, but Adrian spoke up, "Go away Bobby. You are not welcomed here," he seethed at him.

"But my future fucktoy is sitting here," he shot back.

My body froze whenever he said that and I felt Adrian grip my arm tightly. Brian stood up, "Leave me friend alone you fucking pervert," Brian growled at him.

That had my attention. Brian was being mean to someone.

Some people's eyes drifted towards us. Bobby grabbed Brian by the collar of his shirt and I jumped up. I moved across the table quickly and pushed Bobby away from Brian roughly, "Keep your hands off of him," I growled at him.

I saw Alexander and someone else walking over. Bobby glared at me as Alexander reached us, "What's going on here?"

"This little rat can't keep his hands off Brian," I seethed as I glared down Bobby.

"He had it coming. He bac-"

Adrian interrupted him, "Because you can't leave people alone."

Alexander sighed, "Bobby go back to your table and stop trying to start things," he ordered him.

Bobby huffed angrily, which reminded me of a wolf. But that would disrespect my favorite animal, so I saw him as a pig trying to be mad. He glared at me, "Fine. Watch your fucking back Ace," he seethed before storming away.

Alexander turned to me, "You ok?"

"Yea," I muttered before sitting back down beside Adrian.

I just played with the food on my plate.

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I walked into Alexander's office and laid down on the couch as I was watching him type on his computer, "How much longer? I'm bored," I whined at him.

He looked up at me and chuckled, "Not much longer Ace. Give me a few more minutes," he told me.

I sighed and stared up at the ceiling. I was just thinking about the most random things at this point. I still wanted to know why my mom brought the man that I hated with my life here, expecting me to 'get along' with him. Like he didn't do anything at all. I hated her at this moment. Hated them both.

I felt the memories coming back to my head. I closed my eyes tightly and tried to force them to go away, but it help. They still were there. Haunting me.

I hated this and I hated life. It felt like my old habits were coming back to my mind as I tried to suppress the memories the best that I could, but nothing helped. It kept getting worse.

I just stood up and walked over to Alexander. I pulled his chair out and climbed into his lap. A moment later, I felt him wrap his arms around me as I breathed in his scent and buried my face in his neck, "What's wrong baby?" He asked me softly.

I just wanted to scream the word "everything" at him and get it over with, but I couldn't find my voice as I just held onto him.

When I didn't reply, he rubbed my back gently, "Are you having memories of that night with Robert?" He asked me like he could read my mind. I just nodded and he tightened his grip on me. "It's ok baby. I'm here. I got you," he cooed in my ear, keeping his voice soft.

It felt like my brain went dead for a second as I relaxed into him. I breathed in his scent one last time, before speaking, "W-Why me? Why did he have to do that to me?" I heard my voice crack and I hated how it sounded.

He turned his head and kissed the side of my head gently, "Because he was a pedophile baby. He picked you because he knew at your age, you wouldn't know what was happening and he took advantage of it," he explained and I felt the tears fall from my eyes. He pulled me away from his neck and cupped my face in his hand, "But you're strong my sweet boy. The strongest. You hide your emotions but you are just a softy at heart. You are my sweet precious boy that I love seeing everyday. I love seeing that smile and hearing you laugh. I love that you find amuzement in making Wilkerson suffer almost everyday," he spoke gently and slowly.

I looked at him as more tears streamed down my face. There was no way in hell, he could mean that. No one could ever feel like that to me, it was impossible. I hated that I couldn't find any words to say back to him. Like a teasing comment or something heartfelt too.

So I did the one thing I could think of, I kissed him gently. He kissed me back and kept it gentle and slow. I let my hands run through his hair as he kept my face in his hands.

After a while, I pulled away, "I love you Alexander Morgan."

He smiled brightly at me, "I love you Ace Johnson."

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Sorry guys!! I had to find the inspiration again!!

The song choice was recommended by @-alisi