Thoughts about us

Thursday, 8th February 2024

I love this brunette boy so much, I've never felt this for anyone else before, I hate myself for always making too much about a boy who never cared about me but this time, gosh this time, I am right to feel how I feel for this boy, he care about me, I know this, at the start I didn't really like him but now we became closer and he's actually the nicest boy, no boy have ever been this nice to me, I've always liked assholes, but he's not one of them, he's so different, he stand out of the crowd, the way he look at me when I catch him staring at me is beautiful, no boys have ever stared at me like this, like if I was the only girl in the world, the way he's always zoning out and just stare at nothing for minutes, the way he smile, everything about this boy is perfect, if nothing happens or he turn out like every other boy I liked, I will never like a boy like this again, I will never have hope ever again, because if he don't want anything with me I don't know what's his problem. He don't look or talk to me the same way he talk to other girls, he never told them he liked them a lot, he told me twice he really liked me, I hope he mean it in more than a friend way, he know I like him too, so I don't know what he is waiting for, I want to be with him every days, talk to him every day, see his smile every day. I've always been the second choice or not a choice at all, and this time I feel like I AM the first choice, I hope I ame, if he don't like me I don't know who he like then.