NEVER LOSE ME. || NELSON NEUMANN

10 || recovery

"Buenos dias mija, come on let's get you dressed." Marie says as she wakes up chrisett to help her get ready for an outing with the boys team.

although chrisett didn't want to go, cam had insisted she go since she had been sitting in her room not doing anything for a week.

the death of her mother had still been hurting her. she hadn't eaten anything for weeks. she hadn't felt anything for weeks. she hadn't seen anyone for weeks.

even though it was hard for her, she knew she had to recover by herself, no one was going to do it for her.

when chrisett finally got out of bed she felt like she was going to faint. she felt so lightheaded, and insanely tired. she make her way over to the mirror carefully.

she stood upright in front of the mirror and pulled up her shirt and slightly pulled her shorts down to her hips. she had lost a lot of weight and it showed as you could basically see each individual rib.

although it was obvious she had lost weight, she didn't tell anyone. no one noticed. if Marie and cam would ask if she had eaten she would just say yes, and make up a meal.

it was hard for her to grasp the fact that this was happening again as she had an extremely slow recovery. it would be even harder this time.

she touched on her stomach and felt how thin she had become. she looked unhealthy. she could wrap her whole hand around her wrist and her fingers would touch.

suddenly she breaks down into silent tears and holds her head in her hands. she was disappointed in herself. how could she become this way? she had promised her mom to never go through this again.

after calming down, chrisett goes to wipe her tears and shut the door to change into something simple. she picks out some loose jorts and Nelson's merch hoodie test he had given her the last time she saw him.

she smiles slightly at the thought of him but still struggles to grasp the fact she had to go out. what if all of this was fake. what if this is all some sick nightmare, is what she would keep asking herself.

she slowly puts them on and goes to the bathroom. she gets to the bathroom and grabs a random hair tie that was quite thick and would put her hair up well.

Although she didn't want to do anything with herself, she still had to be presentable. Chrisett brushes her teeth and washes her face, and puts up her hair.

she noticed how tired her face looked. her eyebags were insanely visible and dark. she began to rummage through the drawer and finds an old concealer of Marie's.

questioning herself what to blend with since she didn't have any experience with makeup and had never worn anything other than mascara. and just that was for special occasions only.

Chrisett uses the applicator to put some under her eyes and contemplates using her fingers to blend but does it anyways.

it looks... good enough. she thought to herself before pulling the hood of her hoodie up to hide herself, and pulls the sleeves down her hands to hide her skinny arms.

walking down the stairs she sees cam. "hey I was just coming to get you, you ready to go?" he asks with a smile. "yeah just let me get my crocs." she says lowly while they both go back down the stairs.

"hey if you ever wanna talk to me about anything, I'm here for you. and so is Marie, trust me she loves you a-" he starts before getting cut off by chrisett.

"yeah I know, thanks cam." she gives him a light smile before walking ahead of him as he pats her on the back a little.

she grabs her crocs and puts them on before waiting for cam since Marie was already in the car. "leggo" cam says chuckling a bit and grabbing the house key before going to the car.

"Angel!!!" nelson says, running to chrisett with open arms as she walks into the mall they were waiting at. "hey nelson." she says with a slight smile but still goes to hug nelson.

"you okay, bae?" he whispers into her ear, still hugging onto her waist. "Ai! none of that couple stuff, nelson. I'm still here you know" cam says while hitting nelson a lightly on the back of the head.

chrisett blushed slightly, forgetting all the stuff she's been through in the past month or so.

"I'm good, just a bit tired" she finally replies, letting go of the hug and greeting the rest of the people there.

"hey noahhh" she says as she daps him up and greets Niles who was next to him, "how you doin twin!" she says as she hugs him.

"heyyyy DH, how you been?" she daps him up. "I've been good, what about you lil nigga?" "same stuff, just stressed." she says with a slight smile.

she then walks over to lavar, "whaddup girl" he says all zesty making chrisett laugh a bit,

"dont ever say that shit again" she daps him up and goes to hug Kendoll who was next to him.

"hey baby, how you doinggg" she says before letting go of the small hug, "I'm goodddd" she smiles at her.

"hey Melo" she smiles and daps him up. she moves onto cams camera man and daps him up too. she had no idea that this would be filmed though, so she grew a bit nervous.

"guys can we go get food or somethin I'm hungy" nelson asks as chrisett joins him again and interlocks fingers with him.

"sure we just gotta find somewhere to eat." chrisetts stomach turned and she became tense, she couldn't hide it now. she had to eat.

"how does Chipotle sound?" cam asks looking at his phone as they began walking around the mall. various 'good' and 'that's fine' was heard from the group.

as they headed towards the Chipotle, the group had already gained some attention from random teens who were mesmerized by the big camera.

although the mall was kinda busy, they only got stopped a couple times before they arrived. "you wanna share a burrito bowl?" Nelson asks chrisett as he rubbed her back slightly.

"sure, thanks, nels." "o'course bae" he says before telling cam what they want and give him cash before standing near one of the tables.

"you paid for us, yknow i don't like when you do thaaaat" Chrisett says, acting all mad knowing she really isn't. "cmon just accept the gesture. I can't make a women pay, now can I?"

Blush creeps onto her cheeks, "fine. thank you, but tell me next time, I'll find a way to pay you back." "nahhh, ion need you to pay me back. trust me it's my little treat." he smiles again as chrisett also begins to smile.

"you so perfect, angel" he says while looking her up and down licking his lips and slightly biting his bottom one.

"whatchu lookin at me like dat for?" chrisett asks while she furrows her brows. "you just so beautiful, ma" she blushes and pulls the neck of her hoodie to hide it.

"is that my hoodie? I've been lookin for that for so long bruh" nelson asks while chuckling a bit. "oh so I'm your bruh now?" chrisett jokingly asks as cam gives them their food.

"thanks, wanna sit?" nelson asks her and they end up sitting right next to each other. "imma go get a spoon, you want a fork or spoon?" nelson asks chrisett.

"fork please" he smiles and gets them the utensils. when he comes back he has a look on his face, the look that usually means he's got an idea or wants to do something.

"I know that look, what's up?" She asks as she hesitantly takes her first bite of food in a while.

"oh I was just wondering if you wanna come stay at mine for a bit, like until our next game. that ain't for another like 3 days." she contemplates what to say.

"pleaseeeeee, it'll be fun!" he grabs her free hands and caresses it with his thumb.

"I uh, i don't know-"

rinx speaks ☆
long chapter but be ready for the next chapter it might come out today😛

also please please PLEASE seek out help if you are struggling with any mental health problems, everyone will understand!❤️❤️