Just Tell Me It's Not The End

Part 2

I met up with Kyla next morning because my curios friend wanted to know everything that happened the day before. I barely sleep so my condition couldn't be described as a good one. Still... I decided that there's no point staying in bed and hiding from the reality of life.

"I'm so confused, Ella blamed me for everything from the second she laid her eyes on me. well no, at first she slammed the doors and I thought that she might just leave me hanging."

"And then?" Kyla seemed unusually calm about the situation. As if she was trying on purpose to control her usual vitality.

"Well we talked a bit. well no, I stole a kiss and then we talked a bit..."

"You did WHAT?" yes, there is my friend. "Are you insane? You haven't seen each other for six years and the first thing you do is steal a kiss? Are you retarded?"

"its kind of happened I didn't plan it, you know!" I pouted because of the scowl and added "also don't you want to hear the full situation, not just beginning of it?"

Kyla eyed me as if I was really insane but nod encouraging me to continue. I told my best friend everything that happened in Ella's apartment and waited for some comments, even if she scowls at me again. It's better than that silent treatment that she's now giving to me.

Apparently I interpreted Kyla silence as a bad thing but the girl surprised me with a sudden comment "Maybe, I'm against it. but maybe you should try talk with Alyssa and Dennise. Alyssa might try to kill you but there's some hope that Dennise would tell you something if you convince her that you truly don't know what is happening"


I waited for a day knowing that Kyla arranged the meeting and drove to Alyssa and Dennise home. I don't know about their relationship status but if they are living together it must be serious. I knock on the doors nervously and let out a breath I have been keeping when Dennise was the one opening the doors.

"Ohhh hi", she greeted me awkwardly while letting me in. I think I heard her whisper "I'm sorry if Alyssa..." but she didn't get a change to finish the sentence as Alyssa came from their kitchen.

"You have already ruined a perfect morning, so just tell us what you want and leave. I hope you can flee the city like before".

I bit my lip unsure how to start the conversation but Dennise nod her head encouraging me. "I'm...I have met with Ella few days ago..."

Alyssa raised her hand while pointing in my direction accusingly "See! I told you who else could leave Ella such a mess! Of course, it had to be you", she added through greeted teeth and I had to step back a bit.

I have always had somewhat decent relationship with Alyssa. We barely spend time together, I could probably count those times on my fingers and also all of them were with either Dennise or Ella. Surprisingly these two weren't even together back then.

"I'm sorry if my appearance had some outcome but I'm as confused as Ella herself, that's the only reason why I came here. I know you lost contact with Kyla by that time so she can't tell me anything but I need to find out what had happened".

"You left my best friend at the altar waiting for you. That's what happened."

"Well yes...obviously I couldn't come because of my..."

I didn't get to finish when unexpectedly Alyssa slapped me. "Really? You talk so freely about it? Just leave. Ella is happy and she doesn't need you anymore. If I have to see her as hurt as she has been back then...I will haunt you down".

Alyssa stopped her threatening stance when she heard microwave in the kitchen. "When I get back, I don't want to see this one in my home".

She immediately turn around and walked out leaving me speechless. I turn to look at Dennise who scratched her head and smiled apologetically "I told Kyla that there is one way this conversation could have gone but I also made a promise, she said that its literally the last thing she's going to ask from me, so here".

Dennise extended her hand with a key in it. "Is that, what I think it is?"

"I'm pretty sure Kyla has some sort of plan. I think its best if you discuss it with her". Dennise looked at the direction of kitchen with a wonder "I think you should go. Alyssa might come back with a knife"

I looked at the girl wide eyed. I knew that Alyssa had a temper when it came to certain things so it's better not to risk it. I took the key rushing to doors but still, I had to ask to get a confirmation so I can either move on or maybe fight for my one true love.

"Is she happy?"

I should have asked Dennise earlier because she already rushed me out of the doors when Alyssa came back to the room. Before closing the doors, she looked at me wondering for a second and didn't say anything but shook her head.

I got an answer that made my heart flutter with hope. Ella, I'm going to figure out what all of this means. This can't be the end of our story.



I had been back home for almost five days now. I had to visit my parents and Kyla force me to have a dinner with her and Angel. Of course, I haven't seen Angel for a long time but I have always remembered how he ran away from my 'crazy in love' best friend.

I think Angel even moved to a different country running away from his stalker but guess what, Kyla didn't waste her time and moved right after him.

Surprisingly all this creepiness payed off as finally Angel agreed to go out with her and realized that she might as well fall for the girl.

They have been together ever since, I knew this because Kyla called me telling all the details of their relationship. It creeps me out how much I knew but tried not to show it or Angel might as well try to run away from my friend again.

I met with few high school friends but no matter what I did... Ella always stayed on my mind and in my heart.



Kyla told me that we need to be cautious and wait until Ella leaves for work. She has also shared that crazy idea of breaking into her apartment and searching for that letter, letter that ruined everything.

We could go to jail for that but what else is there to do? Ella haven't tried to speak with me again, Alyssa would probably run me down with a car if I try to get in contact with Dennise again and I'm definitely not going to meet Ella's parents again. They don't care about my misery.

We agreed that Kyla will be my look out spending time somewhere close to the apartment. She mentioned that there might be a chance that Ella burn or thrown my letter away or maybe it doesn't even exist and she just told me to mess with my head but I knew my Ella too well...

She wouldn't have thrown it away... she would have kept in and read it repeatedly trying to convince herself that what is written is the truth. I have just hoped that I can find her hiding place.

The big day come and I was looking around the apartment. Kyla agreed to text me if she saw something suspicious and because we went quite early... I had hoped to end this mission successfully.

Look at me acting like a child. But ask yourself... what would you do if your world turn upside down just like that.

After an hour of aimless search and Kyla texting me out of boredom I was close to giving up but noticed Ella's history section. would she leave it there? I had to check.

YES! I was close to tearing off for finding that letter. As I guessed it has been used so many times that it even had been tear up around the corners. Dear Ella... was written down on the envelope.

I was taken back a bit realizing that it definitely resembles my handwriting. It's not an exact match... but even I would have believed that these are my thoughts.

Too much of a coincidence, if I might add.

My hands were shaking but I couldn't wait any longer. I looked inside to read everything that has been written. Unconsciously tears started falling down my cheeks.

Dear Ella,

I have been thinking about this for so long. I couldn't say when my doubts started, where they before you proposed to me or after...

But they always stayed in my head, torturing me...

It's all my fault, for waiting so long, for not expressing them out loud, for leading you on...

I'm choosing the worst possible moment to say this but if not now...when?

I would only make it harder if I come today. I don't want a scene where I burst into tears while standing next to you at the altar and ran out like in some drama...
I also realize it's unfair to you no matter what I do. Especially when you stayed by my side, fought for this love.

Everyone around us kept telling you that at some point I gave in, you were so determined to make me yours...

You kept telling me how beautiful and special I am and I guess I just didn't want to lose any of that. I got spoiled by your attention and hide my true feelings somewhere deep inside.

I realize now maybe I DO love you but it's not the same thing you feel for me.

I'm so sorry Ella! But you have time now, time to find the one for yourself! Your true love! Time to move on from an idiot like me!

I wish to see you happy but it's better for me to disappear. If I stayed near it would only hurt you more.

This is a goodbye, please don't hate me.

What the hell I have just read? It sounded like me, that's the worst part. Not the point about our love, my love for Ella but everything else... gosh... everyone saw that I was freaking out and even expressed uncertainty about our wedding back then.

What bride wouldn't panic before her wedding,though? I need to think there has to be a clue or something...

I was about to read it again and torture myself even more if I haven't heard familiar-confused voice "what...what are you doing here?" Ella asked while unconscionably dropping down her keys.