What do you do? When your crush is proposing you on his knees in front of the whole school but your so called enemy kisses you before you could answer your crush?
Minsoo Kang had this situation with Hyunjin Hwang and couldn't fix it.
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I looked at all directions for him but I couldn't find him. "Hyunjin, where are you?" I said to myself. As I turned around to make my way back to the counter, I bumped into someone. "Oh- I'm sorry" I apologised not noticing who it was.
Jaemin.
"Are you okay, Minsoo? You look worried" he said as he noticed the panick in my eyes.
"Yeah. I'm completely fine. I gotta go-"
"I heard you are dating Hyunjin" his tone changed.
"Yeah. We are" I said not knowing what else to say. Jaemin knew everything. But I don't know why he's asking about it now. This is not comfortable.
"Are you happy with him?" He questioned. Maybe this is why brought this up. To confuse me if I was happy with Hyunjin or not. That tone in his voice is not comfortable. I don't like it.
"Of course, I am. Why wouldn't I be?" I said. I mean, yeah. Why wouldn't I be? I'm happy and we are in a healthy relationship. What else do I have to worry about to not be happy? I'm good. We are good.
"Minsoo, stop gaslighting yourself into thinking everything is fine. Hyunjin is out there talking to Eunjoo. I know you know it and it makes you feel uncomfortable" he said as he gently grabbed my shoulders closer to him.
"What are you talking about? I'm not uncomfortable with Hyunjin talking to other girls. I trust him!" I tried to get away from him grip.
"Minsoo-" he tried to stop me but I ran off.
I didn't want to stay there. It's all too much for me. One night. Too many thoughts. Too much to handle at once.
I rushed outside to the lawn. It's peaceful. The crickets' chirping was so much better than the loud music playing inside. Perfect for peace. I tried to gather my thoughts as I sat on the bench near the fountain. There were some freshmen students a little far away but I could see them being drunk and running around messing with each other. I smiled as I remembered the time when I was in freshman year. I was normal. Better than I am now. No tensions I had then.
I don't know exactly what's wrong but at the moment, I'm aware I'm not in the right state of mind and that's the exact reason why I should calm down and not do anything. That's the best I could do.
I took my phone out my pocket and texted hyunjin. Babe, I need to talk to you. That's what I texted him. I waited for his reply but he didn't see it yet.
I stared at the water flowing out of the fountain. "So pretty" I said. Here I am, talking to myself just to escape from the feeling. But I don't think I can do that. Right now what's important is that I figured out why I'm feeling like this. Is it studies? No. Is it family? No. Is it friends? No. Is it the party? No, I was in the beginning. Is it ....? No, it isn't. There is no appropriate reason to think that my love life is the cause of the weird feeling I have. It's the gossiping that's the problem. Not hyunjin. I just need to shift my focus onto something else. The gossip about our relationship and Eunjoo must be bothering me. That must be it.
I can't believe I'm getting so worked up on something like this.
Things like this is common in a relationship. There are so many people who will take shit about your relationship. So many people who want to ruin your love life. And if you get so worked up for nothing and bother about the very first issue that you face in a relationship, are you even ready for the relationship? Fit for your partner?
"Minsoo!" I heard someone shout my name behind me. I turned around to see who it was. Him again. Jaemin. "Minsoo" He said and came running towards me. He kneeled in front of me and tried to touch my face. I pushed his hand away from me. He sighed.
"How long will you keep doing this? Stop pushing me away and start realising that what you're doing right now isn't making you happy"
"What are you talking about? I'm aware of what I'm doing and I don't feel unhappy about it" I said and leaned backwards avoiding getting too close to his face.
"Minsoo, you are feeling overwhelmed. He is not good for you if he makes you feel like that"
"Jaemin!" I yelled. "Know your limits. It's my relationship. Nothing for you to think about"
He stood up. "Ok, fine. I was saying all of this because friends help each other. I still consider you as a friend. But it looks like you don't" He said and stormed off.
Now that something like this came up, I don't feel so good about Jaemin. He isn't the same anymore. Maybe it was a different side of his. It feels so weird now. Everything is so weird now.
I sighed and hugged myself to feel better.
Hyunjins' face popped up in my mind.
Am I ready for the relationship? Am I fit for him?
Nah, if I keep sitting here and keep feeling sad, I won't be able to get out of this inconvenience I have in my mind. I'll just head back to the party.
I walked inside again. The atmosphere was still the same. Same people. Either getting wasted or nasty.
"Ahhh" I heard someone scream. It was Giselle. "Oh my god. Ningning fainted. What do we do?" I heard her say. I rushed towards them and saw Karina and Giselle holding Ningning as she collapsed. Sumin came up to us. "Just take her upstairs to my room and sprinkle some water on her face. Try to wake her up. If anything is wrong, inform me" she said and handed a glass of water to me. "What are you looking at, Minsoo? Come upstairs with us" Karina said. We climbed the stairs as we took Ningning upstairs.
Karina and Giselle place Ningning on the bed and I sprinkled some water in her Ningnings' face to wake her up. She moved a little bit. "Oh, she's moving. We need more water" Karina said. "I'll go get it" I said and left the room with the glass.
I filled up some water in it and came upstairs. I heard a few whispers from the room opposite to Sumins'. I went to see who it was since the voice was familiar and then......
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