Porchay Kittisawasd The Most Beautiful Man I've Ever Seen

Love triangle

Porchay pov

It's been 6 months since hia moved somewhere else for work. Lastly I saw him months ago, he visited me, made me dinner,we chatted, hia told me about his new job and i told him about uni life and my new friends then we spend the rest of week together.

Now again I am left alone, lonely in my parents old house. It's been 3 month's already since i last saw him i wonder how he is doing. I wish i could meet hia and tell him how much miss him. He's the only family i have.

After highschool I thought I could do something to help hia. So I come up with tutoring my classmates and they even give me fee sometimes and sometimes they don't. I also tried to find part time jobs. I applied for so many I thought it will be hard to find. But it wasn’t that hard now I am not 18 anymore and in uni obviously there is no age barrier anymore,they Don't see me as kid now.

All I want is help my hia out. I am studying hard and working on my projects together. Making sure that my grades are always high, I applied for schoolership. Also I am really great with the music clubs staff all the member seems friendly and the seniors always encourage us.

I rarely hangout with yuri, macau, eiw and mio still they are my great friends. They understand me enough but sometimes drag me away with them. These 6 months was my best days with them. We 5 literall become best friends. But yuri surely is most close with me than anybody else.

I looked over for part-time jobs online and then ended up taking 2 jobs. I was worried about how to do 2 of them at the same time while continue my study. But after 1 months somehow I am getting used to it. I ended up taking 2 part time job at,  one at a convenience store as it was near from my house. And  another one is in a Library. I got 3 day at the convenience store in afternoon shift. And the rest 4 days is evening shift in the library.

I choose library cuz I thought I can also study there as It's a quite place. I can study and make money at the same time. Sometimes i spend my nights there.

The owner of the convenience store seems to know my hia so he take care of me well and I asked him to keep it secret from hia. I know hia will be angry if he know I am working there, he will say me to concentrate on my study. Not to worry about money.

But i will manege as long he Doesn't need to know these at all. I'll just say i needed more pocket money. And probably for cram school. Or i wanted to have dance or music lesson.

But all I want is hia to leave the work he's doing right now. And we can live together like before. Hia can do any other job but I want him to stay with me.

After uni i need to get a job real quick. I want hia to live his own life and to do things he want for himself not to ruin his own life for me.

I have always seen hia to give up on everything, his dreams his likings.
I have seen hia sleep in hungry stomach but feed me 3 times in a day.

Third person pov

He just want his hia to be selfish for himself maybe once. That's why always thought he needed to grow up early. He doesn't want Porsche Not just always earning money for his life. That's why porchay always feel like he need to grow up faster. Faster than others kid.

Although he's now 19 he should act like kid but he never acted like one even when he was eleven twelve Porsche rather scold him for not be that much mature. He wanted his baby brother to act like his age. Argue for wanting things but porchay never wanted more. It's always been like he understand what their family situation was like.

After working in yok's bar Porsche had to fought extra everyday for chay's school fee and not to mention these hooking up. Chay always felt bad. He never wanted his hia to do these. He hated how his hia worked this much hard just to feed him and giving him a better life. He never was jealous of these students from his school seeing them with their parents but one thing he was jealous of is seeing his friends spending time with their older brother's. He always felt like he wanted to spend time with his big brother. He always had a kind of lonely company of Porsche