SECRET NIGHT LOVER

Part 13: LOVE MYSELF

Jimin sat in the same position on the bed for 30 minutes straight without moving. He wondered what just happened.

Jimin's thought:

Why did I expect such love from Kook when he had already rejected me before? Why did I allow my feelings to lead me? Why did I fall deeper in love with his games? Why do I allow him to kiss me? It is my fault; it is my fault for falling for him. I need to wake up and close my heart to expect again. He does not love me like I do, so let's stop trying. Let's see him as a brother now. Let's relax and enjoy the break.

...

Jimin got up and freshened up before heading down for breakfast. He met the members with their food, and Jin Hyung served him his food with fruit juice.

Jin: I hope you are feeling okay, beautiful. Relax and enjoy your food, okay?

Ji: Thanks, Hyung, for the food.

Jin: Anytime, my love.

Jimin felt heavy in his head; he needed to note down how he was feeling and be free from such thoughts. He quietly left to his room and brought out a pen and book from his bag. He began writing down these words. (Lyrics words from Outro: Tear)

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We walked towards the same place

But this place becomes our last

Although we used to talk about forever

Now we break each other without mercy

Although we thought that we dreamed the same dream

That dream has finally become a dream

My heart is torn, please burn it instead

So that pain and regret, none of that would be left

Yeah,
There's no such thing as beautiful goodbyes, so just begin now
Ooh, take it easy, slowly carve out my heart

So that regret, regret, such a thing will no longer be left
Please burn up my heart that was torn into shreds

So go on and kill me without hesitating

Now we've seen the end and not even resentment is left
I've woken up from the sweet dream and I close my eyes
This is the real you and this is the real me

...

He closed the book, feeling light in the head and letting out a heavy sign.

Jimin: That was good. I feel OK now. Let's go and watch the game now.

Jimin took a bottle of soju and joined the others to watch the final game between Korea and Japan.

He willingly sat on the floor between Kook's legs and relaxed his arms on his thighs as if nothing had happened between them.

Joon: Flirty Jimin is back.

Jin: I guess normal Jimin is sleeping for now.

Jimin giggled while adjusting his butt on the floor. Kook kept staring at Jimin, but he behaved normally, like always.

Kook: Are you feeling okay, Hyung?

Jimin: I am okay. Sorry for shouting at you.

Kook: Don't worry.

Jimin: Thanks, and now let's watch the games.

After an hour passed.

Jimin found himself sleeping on the couch while the members dispersed to do their last solo fun activities.

Suga felt the need to have a conversation with Jimin, so he went down from his bed and headed straight to the living room where Jimin was sleeping.