"I'm Felix, and this is my first year in college, and im excited to start on this class." Felix said, his heart racing with excitement as he smiled brightly. His light and longer blonde hair added to the features of his freckles. Everyone clapped in respect when he did this.
He felt happy so suddenly. He didn't see hyunjin. No heartbreaking shattering news was coming across him in this moment. Just pure excitement.
He took the whole summer healing and finding ways to cope with the fact that his ex-boyfriend was cheating-lying-bitch.
He took in a deep breath when he sat down. New beginnings, new things are coming his way. Sure, he sometimes still thought about hyunjin. Because a part of him longed for the touch, the love hyunjin gave him.
Except, it wasn't love. It was manipulation. Acting. It wasn't real. It felt terribly real, though.
Felix looked down to his hands that were on his thighs so carefully. He still remembered every touch hyunjin made on him.
Every kiss that stained his body.
He hated it. Remembering the number of times he hurt himself for hyunjin. The number of times his self-respect left him just for a guy who was lying to his face about everything.
He was free from It though, peace, maybe even more chances for love. If he could get rid of the now traumatizing feeling of his love life now.
He was still the same, a loner, luckily, jeongin happened to go to this collage, different majors so their buildings were seemingly far away. But during lunch and dinner, they ate with each other, caught up with everything.
He exited the art building, removing the square device from his Grey tote bag. He wasn't the type to really be unorganized as it bothered his soul to see one thing out of place.
"Hi." Felix heard. His smile brightened when he noticed jeongin standing outside of the doorway waiting for him.
"Hi, how are you?"
"I didn't sleep much last night, but I'd say I'm good— I was with Chan so."
"Hm, that kept you up all night, huh?" Felix smirked,"we didn't do anything serious. The walls are thin!" Jeongin said quickly, defending himself.
"What about you? You have no sex life or love life." Jeongin said, immediately saying something to fire Felix back. Felix scoffed in his own reasoning. He didn't need love or sex to be honest.
He didn't need another liar touching him like he was in love.
"I don't need any of those— there's a party tonight.. we should go, it's for the welcoming freshmen, us basically." Felix said.
He changed the conversation quickly. "Of course we're going, didn't think you'd ask, you're a stay at home and paint type of guy." Felix rolled his eyes, pushing jeongins shoulder away from him in pure disgust.
"Whatever!" Felix said. The two separated ways at the dorm rooms. He couldn't wait to sit back and just lay down and do nothing for the moment, which would be the four hours before the welcoming party.
He'd heard things about the college parties. There are a lot more alcohol options, and a lot more dirty things happen there.
He used his key, twisting the keyhole until the door dropped open. He'd already gotten used his dorm as he moved in two days earlier than he should have.
He must've gotten a roommate, as the bags were sitting out in front of the dorm.
He dropped his tote bag next to the dorm couch. He undressed his cardigan from his body. He heard the sounds of light foot steps behind him as he entered the kitchen.
He immediately prepared to great his new roommate, a smile as he turned his head to look at the guy.
Yet, his smile faded so quickly, it was the quickest it ever faded.
His body language slowed down so quickly, not being able to move. He wanted to run upon the sight but he couldn't. His legs,they were stuck. His heart began beating in such a way it made his throat hurt.
He felt he was being choked. Not even a single word could call out of his vocal cords.
"Hey."
Hyunjin spoke softly before Felix could even process. Felix just slowly looked down, hyunjin couldn't tell what Felix felt but it wasn't good.
"W-Why are you here?" He stuttered out, avoiding hyunjin glass eyes that shined so brightly.
"I'm your roommate."
"N-No, you aren't get out."
Felix said quickly, almost scoffing at hyunjins face. "Felix, I chose this room."
"Just so you can rub it in my face?"
"Rub what Felix?—" hyunjin quickly said.
"The fact that you hurt me, you enjoyed seeing me in pain, you didn't care hyunjin. Get out, or I'm making you leave."
"There's no more rooms, Felix. I can't just be stranded— it's been months, Felix, you can't forget everything?"
Felix's eyes were glaring so harshly upon hyunjins soft eyes. They were different, they were begging. Felix's hands were tightly against hyunjins suitcase outside of the door. He was thinking about throwing them so far away and locking the door behind him.
"Stop saying my fucking name, you don't know me." Felix said, he dropped the suitcases and the bags upon the door step, letting the luxury brands fall to the floor.
He grabbed his cardigan and bag, snatching them with him as he left. To go God knows where. Hyunjin knew this wasn't gonna end up good.
Felix saw him and flipped out.
He expected it, though.
He saw hyunjins face and saw everything bad about it. If hyunjin was honest, he wanted to apologize. He wanted to start over, be friends, maybe more again.
But he wasn't sure now.
